Sometimes I dream about things left unsaid, about apologies I'll never receive, I wish I could admit just how often what so many ex-friends did to me made me cry without the scumbags who cheered on my abuse relishing in it, but wishing people were better has never made it so, so I'll cry alone.

Now that I've watched all the beatbreak currently out Which digimon series should I start next?

It's not solace remembering all the people who called me obsessed and miserable actively hate themselves, and they're trying to appease a group that frequently prioritizes getting horny over any kind of morality, and often at their expense too it just makes me sad, they don't love themselves.

Contrary to knee-jerk assumptions people make when I lose friends over 'drama' I actually do love myself, a lot I love myself too much to subject myself to betrayal from lonelier, sadder people who have unhealthy codependent relationships with my abusers You can't guilt-trip me to take poison.

I don't think I'll ever be able to understand people who try to justify lying to avoid conflict as some kind of virtue You're just screwing with people either for your comfort or out of disrespect to the other. I felt so much shame when I did it... I can't respect you at all if you take pride in it

Victims are constantly expected to perform for the comfort and attention of the bystander. Abuse is buried all the time, the only time something ever becomes 'serious' is when loud attention-loving grifters grab onto something and spread it enough Like, kana's great at that, it's why they're popular

I never get worried my friends "secretly hate me" because I don't hang around chronic liars

Nat wearing a big t shirt that says "I WATCHED DIGIMON BEATBREAK AND ALL I GOT WAS THIS LOUSY PRISTIMON FETISH"

Week 2 of unemployment: I have done nothing but watch and play Digimon for 6 days

I promise, I think almost every single day about the former friends who say I "threw them away", the ones who think I never cared, that leaving was easy, You'll never see the mark it left on me, you never wanted to see any of my pain. I don't deserve the blame for your repressed guilty conscience.

I started playing digimon time stranger too I guess I'm a digihead now I find it really funny how often npcs refer to you as "the one with the weird outfit" but the very first thing I did with put this burger shirt on so like people just really hate my burger shirt in shinjuku

I wasn't expecting it to really be my thing but I've been watching digimon beatbreak and it's actually pretty fun! Gekkomon is a dumbass i love them I used to be really into digimon when I was a little kid, i don't remember why i fell out of it

It's a fascinating insight seeing replies overwhelmingly imply that you're more mature for being friends with every side of the hateful web, that it means you're 'chill' I think it shows a lot of dishonesty and insecurity to see someone put on enough blinders to mingle with a pit of snakes like this

and if I know you're still liking p4wsized's art, I promise you, I will just block you I don't really care how you justify it I really don't care if you think less of me for it I don't want your likes I don't want your follow I don't want your friendship you are helping make this community worse.

Nat@natfox.bsky.social · 2w ago

what's sad looking back on paige and kana getting away with everything is that I never wanted to make a scene I just didn't want a friends list full of idiots who slobber all over any malignant narcissist with a hot sona the second I look away anymore but just unfriending ppl led to so many rumors

it's pretty funny (read: infuriating) how enthusiastic and supportive people are about blindly fighting their friend's battles right up until the moment they realize it implicates someone they like honestly maybe we shouldn't be so enamored supporting things we don't understand in the first place

I should not be allowed to play modded minecraft im not good at it yet i get hopelessly addicted anyway half the stuff i make breaks in an hour the other half looks disgusting but works great i hate it? I love it? I kinda wish I was just playing factorio??

what's sad looking back on paige and kana getting away with everything is that I never wanted to make a scene I just didn't want a friends list full of idiots who slobber all over any malignant narcissist with a hot sona the second I look away anymore but just unfriending ppl led to so many rumors

sometimes i think about all the people who thought it was totally cool to lie to my face for years and pretend to find my paw kink cute and encourage it until we're no longer friends and then suddenly they're telling others the way I'm into paws is creepy and weird it's scary how often it happens

Don't losing control of a cloning experiment. It makes helping you hard as any movement means smooshing at least one of you...   Characters: @eddiefox.bsky.social @natfox.bsky.social   CW: #sizesky #paws #furry #art #furryart #nsfw   Carrd in bio <3 Comm form: https://forms.gle/AhSY56jewnvDPB7NA

day 1 of unemployment im making tiramisu (and thinking about paws)

I'm free. I will never ever work in research again Whatever comes next can't be worse. I know I'll certainly be better far, far away from a lab.

Big Nat: brain wrinkles, does serious study, ambitious, tries to succeed, angery 😠 Ant-sized Nat: brain smooth and cute, does bug things, tail wags, eat crumbs, gets squished, happy 😊

Nats are not high in calories but that also means they're not high in sugar or fat, some might call this a guilt-free* snack *as long as you don't ask the speck sized foxes how they feel

I'm not trying to police people's friendships, but you get how paradoxical it is to demand my friendship when I can't remotely stand the people you're near, right? What gives you the right to be upset but not me?

Gonna scream into the void a bit. You can't have it both ways: you get to choose your friends and I get to choose mine. And chances are if your friends have seriously hurt me I'm not very likely to choose you.

Get to know me a little and you'll probably learn pretty quickly how much I love to submissively worship paws but when we REALLY becomes friends is when you have to listen to me daydream about being an ant you spray with raid or wash down the sink

In 1 week I will no longer be a scientist And after nearly a decade of toxic egos, office politics, and pseudointellectuals ensuring every ounce of passion I ever had for research shriveled up, good fucking riddance.

A date with me? What if I made you dinner? What if we watched a movie? What if I begged and pleaded for permission to massage your paws while rejecting all your other advances? What if I gave them just a single kiss? What if I slept at the foot of your bed? It would never work

Anyway please don't ask me to rail you shrink me and put me squirming and screaming up your ass instead

Debating putting "ace" in my bio despite being a horny freak and not really enjoying how the label defines me just because I can't trust people to understand context clues before they tell me how much they wanna fuck my ass or make an entire scenario about my dick (which i could care less about)