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Mostly Wincest and Kylux, but also Gentlebeard, Hannigram, Steve/Bucky, WinterFrost. 30+. he/him. https://t.co/4oLO2erZUN

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need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 14h ago

I'm a soft fluffy boy who shies away from whump and hates injuring his characters but GOD do I love drenching them in the blood of their enemies and having them fuck like that. applies to both my fandoms.

need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 15h ago

SPN daily tarot news: I drew Azazel two days in a row in the same position. he advises to pursue my big dreams. I guess it’s time to release Lucifer.

need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 2d ago

I recently had one person leave thirty-five kudos on my wincest fics in one day and now another person is slowly going through my wincest fics, leaving amazing comments on them. I don't know what I did to deserve such wonderful, generous readers but I cherish every single one.

need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 2d ago

husband showed me Eric Clapton's Tears in Heaven because he sent me a funny reel based on it and I've been crying about the SPN finale for fifteen minutes now 👍👍👍

need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 2d ago

this isn't an idle question btw. I have more fics tagged as fluff than angst. I came back to fandom life by writing kylux fluff. I've been a fluff writer for years. I'm having an existential crisis.

need_more_meta@need-more-meta.bsky.social · 6d ago

mentioned to my alpha reader friend that I consider myself a predominantly fluff writer and they went “uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh???” but I am, right? I AM first and foremost a fluff writer…??

need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 2d ago

Sam: It's a brother act. Dean: *immediately thinks about RINGS and DOVES and !!RINGS!! because those are obviously magic things and not at all WEDDING THINGS* Dean. Your brotherbridal fever is showing.

Screenshot S04E12 Criss Angel Is a Douchebag
Sam: It's a brother act.

Screenshot S04E12 Criss Angel Is a Douchebag
Dean: Yeah, you know, with the rings and doves...

Screenshot S04E12 Criss Angel Is a Douchebag
Dean: ...and rings.

need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 3d ago

this ficlet on AO3 because I decided everyone should suffer: ❤️At His Limit💙 ~350 w, pre-series through season 1 #wincest, teen, angst archiveofourown.org/works/90175571

At His Limit - need_more_meta - Supernatural (TV 2005) [Archive of Our Own]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

archiveofourown.org

need_more_meta@need-more-meta.bsky.social · 4d ago

a little tumblr ficlet because I sat down and chose violence. www.tumblr.com/need-more-me...

He could take his brother outside, faster than he’d ever run, smoke chasing him, world cracking at his heels.

He could listen to Dad talk, those stories of the dark and what lurks in it, not shedding a single tear, brave little soldier, good oldest son.

He could wash the fear off his face, get himself into whatever served as a kitchen at any given moment, and put together something like a dinner for two, not caring about his own preferences.

He could weave stories out of thin air, and not just little white lies for the strangers, but also neat happy worlds for his brother to believe in while he still believed him.

He could get fireworks and throw a secret party for two, and he could get turkey sandwiches for a beggar’s Thanksgiving, and he could even get whipped cream and rainbow sprinkles for Sam’s breakfast muffin on May 2, 1999.

need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 3d ago

I can't believe this story is now fully posted. it was brewing in my head for months, twisting and turning and squirming out of my grip. I never intended to write a Wincest AU, and this one did end up more like an in-universe SPN AU, but I'm fine with that. it was a ride.

need_more_meta@need-more-meta.bsky.social · last mo.

❤️Would You Like Some Pie with That?💙 ~38k, Coffee Shop AU + Fantasy AU #wincest, explicit, getting together, Sam has powers, stuffed with anachronisms, this is not a normal Coffee Shop AU Prologue Chapter 1. Honey Chapter 2. St. John's Wort archiveofourown.org/works/680893...

Would You Like Some Pie with That?

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Summary:
Finally able to retire from hunting, Sam and Dean exchange swords and chain mail for pies and aprons, opening a coffee shop for everyone in need of a little mood boost.

The civilian life goes swell until Sam finds a strange man slumped by their front door.

A man who, as it turns out, is not exactly a man.

need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 4d ago

accidentally wrote ~800 words of a completely unplanned ficlet in under an hour on my day off from writing. I don’t start writing until I have an outline that I have left to breathe for at least a week. I don’t get randomly inspired, I follow a writing schedule. what is going on.

need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 4d ago

a little tumblr ficlet because I sat down and chose violence. www.tumblr.com/need-more-me...

He could sew the gash in his side on his own, hiding it from his little brother, sparing them both an argument about the way they live.

He could put his hands on his brother’s shoulders and push him away, ever so gently, breaking their angry first/last kiss, and tell him that it doesn’t matter if he feels this way, too.

He could look at his brother’s back, receding into the night, the amulet heavy on his chest, and know that this was the end of him, and know, too, that he would keep the hope like the extra ration you stuff into the furthest corner of your bag so it’s a nice surprise when you find it.

He could spend two years on nothing but dreams made of memories, some of them wondering where that kiss would have gotten them if he’d let it.

He could muster up courage and break into the world where he isn’t welcome, and that’s where he is now, and his brother is looking at him with eyes he desperately wants to recognize, and that’s when it hits him, sharp and blinding and true.

“I can’t do this alone.”

need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 4d ago

I probably should have mentioned that I'm already in the middle of outlining an alternate season 7 with completely different mythology. I *will* be writing shorter fics along the way, so there shouldn't be big gaps in posting, but jesus christ. I can't plot. what am I doing.

need_more_meta@need-more-meta.bsky.social · 5d ago

I have one wincest project inspired by a tumblr ask and one wincest project inspired by a song shown to me on tumblr. project 1 has turned into a season rewrite. project 2, a two-part 1.5 season rewrite. please be patient with my brain. (also somebody help me.)

need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 5d ago

today I'm sad because my brain is incapable of generating really interesting ideas, premises, and what-ifs. :(

need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 5d ago

I bought myself an SPN hat and now the store emailed me suggesting other items with the same design, including THIS

A bright red hi-vis vest with white reflective stripes and the SPN anti-possession symbol printed on the left side.

need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 5d ago

I had a long day and am craving virtual cuddles, so have a snippet. S10E03 Soul Survivor AU where Dean turns Sam into a demon and they discover new things about each other. coming to your local AO3 later this month.

need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 6d ago

bringing y'all a little teaser of the fic I'm posting next week after we're done with the Coffee Shop AU. post-12x02, Sam and Dean navigating their reunion while Mary is also in the bunker

“What are you thinking about now?” He fans his other hand over Dean’s stomach, feeling it expand as Dean breathes.

“That Mom’s right down the hallway,” Dean says, something heavy lurking under the blank way he lets the words fall. “That you are right here.”

Nudging the collar of Dean’s top shirt away with his nose, Sam kisses the exposed skin down the side of Dean’s neck as he tugs the strap all the way through the buckle, the leather pliant and soft in his fingers. “She is,” he agrees, tries to make it casual when there’s nothing casual about it at all. “I am.” This one is easier, it’s familiar, it’s how things should be.

Dean’s hand falls away from Sam’s, and that’s permission enough. “What do we do?” he asks as Sam reaches down to finish undoing Dean’s belt.

He cups Dean’s crotch, the hopeful bulge of it. “We keep very, very quiet.”

need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 6d ago

got myself a super gay timer for writing my super gay fics.

need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 6d ago

mentioned to my alpha reader friend that I consider myself a predominantly fluff writer and they went “uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh???” but I am, right? I AM first and foremost a fluff writer…??

need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · last wk.

if you thought the penis leech was bad, now the characters were lying in ambush and one of them got eaten by a tiger.

need_more_meta@need-more-meta.bsky.social · last mo.

reading a Vietnam War novel to improve my John characterization and it goes hard right from the start (absolutely using this story as nightmare fuel for Dean)

“What is it, Sergeant Bass?” Mellas asked.
“You’d better go have a look, Lieutenant. It’s the damnedest thing I ever saw. Fisher’s got a leech right smack up the hole in his cock.”

need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · last wk.

trying my hand at #wincest tumblr ficlets www.tumblr.com/need-more-me...

Sam wakes up, brushes his teeth, looks at the crooked one and eight Dean drew with ketchup on the breakfast sandwich he’s passing to the birthday boy, and then he kisses Dean because he doesn’t care about any other present but this.

And then Dean kisses back, and Sam didn’t even hope he would, but he does, and they tangle, mingle, twine together until they never sleep in different beds again.

And then Bobby calls because the letter’s in his mailbox, and Sam can’t tell anyone else, and he fucks Dean stupid, begs Dean to fuck him till he can’t walk, and it feels like heaven, like hell.

And then Sam walks out into the night, Dean’s eyes fixed on his back, and the words they didn’t say hang behind him in the air, and he knows, makes himself know that they will say them one day.

And then life tackles Sam, out of left field, so much of it, more than he’s ever had, and he thinks he found a new way, a license to a different kind of being, with nights that don’t fill you with dread.

And then Dean visits, and Sam drowns in him again, and it’s what he wants, and it’s not what he wants at all.

And then he pulls his clothes on, he waits till Dean’s dressed, too, and he crosses his arms as he says, “This is what we are going to do. We are going to live our own lives. I, here; you, wherever you want. And we will never talk about this again. We never should have.”

And then Dean, on a shaky laugh, “We never talked about it, dude.”

And then Sam, nails digging into his elbows, “Goodbye, Dean.”

And then comes fire, comes blood, comes grit and dirt and cold sweat, comes nothing and everything, and Sam doesn’t know what he knows anymore.

And then Dean says this, and the joke bleeds.

Screenshot from S01E11 Scarecrow
Dean: Hold me, Sam.

need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · last wk.

canon proof that Dean is bisexual: he doesn't know how to sit in a chair

need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 2w ago

because 100+ fic projects, four original novel projects, and dozens of poetry projects are not enough, I started jotting down first sentences for potential short stories. I have fifteen now. I want to shoot my brain.

need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 2w ago

okay why did I JUST learn that Oasis—y’know, the band Dean compares them to—has a song with the lyrics “YOU’RE MY LOVER, I’M YOUR BROTHER”??? why is this not included in the Wincest 101 Starter Pack??? this fucking show, istg.

Screenshot from S12E07 - Rock Never Dies.
Dean: We're kind of like the American Oasis.

need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 2w ago

wincest and kylux are like: "there ain't no me if there ain't no you" vs "I don't care if you win; I need Kylo Ren to lose." I-love-you-so-much-Heaven-isn't-perfect-without-you and I-hate-you-so-much-you're-all-I-can-think-about. I don't know what it says about me lmao.

need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 2w ago

#wincest Dean rubs his face over his pillow, one arm flailing in a half-hearted attempt to flip Sam off. He’s acting normal, too normal, Sam knows it, they both know it, and they aren’t going to do shit about it.

#ficwip@ficwip.bsky.social · 2w ago

This week's word is... ✨ PILLOW ✨ because I am tired and would like to go back to sleep. Find the word in any WIP & share the sentence containing it. All writers welcome. #wordgamewednesday

need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 2w ago

dear fic readers. NEVER apologize for comments. comment every chapter if it moves you. comment and quote the entire fic if you liked it. write an essay. scream. leave an emoji. anything. your comments are mana for the writer. the more we get, the more magic we can cast.

need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 2w ago

Pamela is all drooling over Sam's ass and Dean is just standing there like "yeah, Sammy, ya butt is da bomb 😏😏😏"

Screenshot from S04E10 Heaven and Hell:
Pamela to Sam: "That perky little ass of yours. Bounce a nickel off that thing."
Dean is standing in the background with a face full of PURELY BROTHERLY pride and adoration.

need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 2w ago

me: my tarot cards went like this for today: card one — conflict! unrest! tension! 😡 card two — an intimate bond, friendship, and collaboration 🥰 husband: that’s just kylux

need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 2w ago

writing wincest is coming up with so many ways to describe getting in and out of a car, seriously, it's worse than the 'said' problem.

need_more_meta @need-more-meta.bsky.social · 2w ago

husband: *sends meme* me: this is kylux husband: kylo is away and opening the doors remotely with the force to fuck with hux

A tweet by meghan, username @deloisivete:

My husband is out of town, but the cupboard doors are still open, so now I have to face some cold hard truths about myself