Nigel Ranaghar

@nigelranaghar.bsky.social

32|Catholic|He|Bi|Pro-Life Dem|SFW, no minors|Ranty|Loving towards all|Will call out injustice|Furry|Latex Enjoyer|Single|Views are entirely my own|follow,like,rt!=full endorse

I have now finished Edgerunners, Season 2. Once again, the lesson is: get the FUCK out of Night City. (Jk, jk, it's to embrace life) So, less desperate need to purge Cyberpunk out of my system, but still will. Maybe finish VTMB. Or look for some other game in my backlog... Rogue Trader? Hades2?

Has heroic game launcher ever worked for someone? I had it install witcher 3, and witcher is all "oh, sorry, your graphics card doesn't support DX12" and it's like.... Sure Jan. My 4080 which runs all my other DX12 games on linux via wine doesn't support it. Steam? Works great. Heroic? never works

Im so tired of the voice in my head saying im a waste of space, that im not talented, that im ugly, that im awkward, that im a failure. Im just so tired. It hijacks the shame centers, the ones that should activate when you do something bad, and just makes me feel constantly shitty.

I know i complain a lot about being alone and shit. But every person ive asked out in the last year has said no, generally between "sorry, im aromantic" (that would be my bad for asking) or "objectively you're a catch, i just dont feel the spark" It's 2026. Someone could ask me out you know!!

Me: "I don't think im affected much by toxic masculinity" Also me: "sorry, i shouldn't be crying. Emotions are stupid and get in the way of rational thought and clear communication. They're useless, sorry for my weakness"

Ever feel like the would would've been better if you never existed? Not like in a suicidal way, just... you're pretty sure that you're a net drain on the world? Yeah, me to. .... anyway, here's me smelling flowers or something.

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Last night's boat psrty was so fun!! Still woke up in the middle of the night with nuke anxiety, and woke up this morning will such a full body ache from lonliness and needing someone to love and hold.

This doggo visited Leavenworth Washington! It didn't always look like this; it's a deliberate choice the town made in the 50s/60s to revitalize the town as a toursit destination after the logging and mining industries left in the 30s. Still: cute town, was a nice time.

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