Awful day at work... aaaaaa... need to quit........... finally going to try to talk to the boss on Sunday about all the issues with her nephew but I doubt I'll get anywhere and am probably better off just giving my two weeks instead... but money....

I think I'm at the point where I really want to quit my job but I just don't know what else I'm supposed to do

I feel like I've been hit by a truck, got home from work and have been in bed since... Full of thoughts and opinions and desires to have debates over meaningless things no one wants to hear about...

Sleepy and feeling like a problematic nyan (just in general)...

I just had a realization All these years I thought I loaned the bonus disc to a friend and only had the game and then it got destroyed (along with Path of Radiance that I loaned them too.. This case doesn't say "game that comes *with* bonus disc, this *is* the bonus disc...

The birth of a new legend (a cursed Mono Monet plush (real)) #monomism #petalightplushies

Yayoi Kusama.........

Thinking again about Konaka and how unfairly and dirty the world treats him... he's a real one okay.... he's allowed a miss from a silly quick stageplay lacking in subtly... okay..... I always see people parrot misinformation about him and it makes me sad...

Another nyan kind of night.. In random news I was looking at my hair in the mirror and my mallen streak is so distinct now... An inch wide steak of silver white hair.. it's kind of aesthetic honestly

Feeling pretty menhera tonight... I wonder what I need to change in my life and how to go about doing it instead of staying in bed 16-20 hours a day wanting to sleep forever

I really need to get myself together somehow aaaaaa I'm just a sleepy mess lately..

Kuja.........

I've done nothing but sleep.. it's normal people waking time now but I kinda just want to sleep more.. I truly am the napping nyan..

🎈 THIS SATURDAY, 7pm EST 🎈 i will be going live for 24 HOURS to (very belatedly!) celebrate Four Years of Video's Game's Live's Streaming's and buddy.. pal... you're invited... the stream will feature "FEATURES" and "EVENTS" maybe also "SURPRISES" too.. okay! thanks! 🙇

Dream Diary: In some kind of Japanese convention place. Decided to go into a craft room with some color changing modeling clay, ran by a Japanese queen like lady. Her daughter was also there and I felt a bond with her but she was kind of twisted. Somehow I made a tie..?

Another extremely sleepy nyan kind of dayy

I'm back to thinking of making a website... I still have the layout completely drawn out, the hard part is just learning enough programming to actually make it... (I still want to use 11ty and have full control over it.. or maybe Hugo or something but 11ty feels more approachable for me..)

Okay so apparently SAI2 thought I was shilling it too hard and when I opened it today it deleted half of my text (only the text on the right side of the screen...? And it left a single line of text...? Though the right side had the bulk of my text...)

I'm wide awake in bed with an Engrish song in my head but I can't remember the name of the song and it's bothering me.. I'm pretty sure it's by the Novembers or another Japanese band.. there's like a catchy "don't panic don't pan-panic" part and then a "long and lonely road" and "thinking of you"?

I got to wake up in five hours so mistakes have been made But also I finished my zine contribution so I'm happy (even if I just kind of made up the text as I went) Got to push the SAI2 update with it and did essentially the entire thing in SAI2... thank you robust SAI2 text tools....

I'm so extremely sleepy as expected but Kuja was voted number one most wanted bad Dissidia game villain in a survey and I was one of many quoted in the article so it's nice to see that the world still has good taste...

I'm pulling the trigger and making it official!! "Play Time" my gaming zine with articles and graphic design by YOU!! is now live! You have two weeks to write up and article, cover it with screenshots and character art and other graphic design! Join my discord to submit and chat with everyone!

(remember you too can contribute pages to a fun fanmade gaming magazine for funsies. Write an article, do a tier list, draw an ad, I'm invested in this project after working on my pages~)

Okay on one hand I stayed up very late On the other hand I took a three hour nap at 3am and then I got in the zone and finished like 90 percent of my GPool zine contribution so I'm happy (also been listening to a musician called Johnny Marr lately while I worked)

Laying awake in bed thinking about making a comic/manga again... I dream of isolating myself from the world for a few months and doing nothing but making it.. perhaps one day...

Aaa my body is such a mess lately and all I do is whine..~ On the plus side, thinking again of how neat artificial human characters with ball joints are..

love yourself now

I finally got my sleep study results back andddddd "The home sleep study showed a total of 30 times when the airway blocked off during the night" "I would call the home study results inconclusive- no severe issues found but it was not normal either." They want an in-person study now.....

Also it sounds like work is going to continue to be heck... My coworkers warned me that the boss (who was out for three months and just got back this week) is going on vacation in September, refuses to hire anyone, and is sending my coworker to help at another store, leaving me 30+ hour weeks...

I am yet again so tired and wanting to draw and once again I will probably continue to feel tired and not draw.... Surely one day I'll break out of this loop right...