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@obverse404.bsky.social
🔪 I'm not a mentally stable person at all. I don't want to be one either. I don't want to get better. If you want to watch my descent to madness again keep watching. I'll burn brighter than bright just for you. Just promise to clean up the husk left behind
Why can't I just die? Pkease. It hurts. It hurts so bad. Just kill me. Make it stop. Its torture every single day.
Living hurts me. Every second I'm alive hurts me. It hurts. I don't know why it hurts so much but it hurts so bad. It hurts. It hurts. It's hurting me.
bad thoughts with pokemon girl
I will see a friend today. Haven't slept, but with my mask maybe I can actually talk to them.
I would really love a bullet through my brain so it stops working. Fucking miserable existence.
Talking to people you can see is terrifying how does anyone do this?
I hate that I feel sane I want to be unwell. At least when you're unwell you could go to the hospital. And maybe then someone would care enough. When you're unwell you could actually muster up the strength to do something, ANYTHING, but I just can't. I can't even hit myerlf anymore.
My sudden onset shoulder pain has lessened but I'm still feeling like a bug being cruahed by a rock. Why do these things always happen to ne when I try to change, even a little? I must've pissed off a higher entity somehow.
Please let my mask get here soon. Don't wanna be perceived anymore
I got too old and now everyone hates me and everything hurts and Nobody is going to help me. I always knew it'd turn out like rhis just let me die please
What was even the point in trying to change. Its never going to happen.
It's every time it's EVERY TIME FUCKK I HATE THIS I HATE LIVING I HATE IT HERE I HATE THAT I KNOW NOBODY ACTUALLY CARES ABOUT ME NOBODY WANTS ME EVERYTHING HURTS IT HURTS IT HURTS IT HURTS FUUUUCK WHY DID I EVER THINK I COULD STOP HURTING FOR A SECOND???? WHATS WRONG WITH ME AM I FUCKING CRAZY?????
I just shouldn't bother. I shouldn't have let myself be fooled into trying again I should've fucking known better by now than to trust the voices by now. IM THE ONLY ONE WHO KNOWS WHAT IM TALKING ABOUT IM THE ONLY ONE WHOS BEING FUCKUNG HONEST!!!!! LIFE IS PAIN AND SUFFERING AND MISERABLE KILL ME!!!
I'm being punished again like usual. For darijg not to feel bad for a sedond. When am I going to learn my fucking lesson? When am I going to just die??? Its the only way to make it stop. There's no fixing this. There's no fixing anything I want to die. Please let me die please
Nobody wull be there to comfort me. As usual. Why did I even bother thinking I could feel better? What the fuck is my fucking problem huh? I should know my fucking place rifht now.
Hahaha yeah. Yeah yeah of course. Of course the moment I start trying to feel okay is the moment something starts hurting again. Why fucking wouldntb it?? Why wouldn't I be subjected to pain for darkmg to rhink things moght be alright for a sexond??? Yeah. I was born to be miserable and nothing else
People perceiving you is horrifying. How does anyone do it at all?