Hehe cool! Thanks to @abrokenbattery.bsky.social as he shared my work on his FB page!

@nikosuvisto.com You popped up at the Norwegian ”Fokus på ME“ page on FB! “Niko is a photographer living with severe #MECFS. He has been largely bedridden since 2022 and is too ill to photograph other people, so he turned the camera on himself.“ I’m so happy to see your work reaching Norway 🇳🇴

Isn’t it funny the way you’ll crave stuff when you’re actively trying to lose weight? I’m craving ice cream right now and I don’t even like ice cream that much. Can’t stop thinking about it either.

Painting is out again. Painting my long planned ME-painting. I hope it turns out as well as I pictured it.

I’m not 2026 rich, I’m 90’s rich. Ever thought about what you have today that were considered rich in the 90’s?

Buying a Roborock was honestly a great decision on my part. My floors are constantly clean, which is a new experience having ME. If you can afford to buy one or save for one, do it. 10/10. I highly recommend the Qrevo Curv version!

I’ve gained like 8kg since 2020 and I’ve decided to start losing the weight before I start dating again. I do not feel bonita. I’m not fat-fat, but I’m not skinny either. I’m also thinking that my body has to carry these extra kilos and maybe losing them would help my ME.

When you kinda want to say something, but saying something could potentially ruin something.. so you say nothing in hopes that they will say something. That’s something.

I hate it when neurotypicals (I say that with full confidence knowing I’m not diagnosed yet) think I’m trying to argue, when I’m in fact agreeing with them, just because their ego got hurt of their own false interpretations.

I’ve been anonymous online for 5 years now while my welfare case has been going on and I’m so tired of it. I want to show who I am, be me and not be afraid if I’m going to be punished for ”looking healthy“ in a photo online.

Being friendzoned sucks. It’s never happened to me before and I don’t like it. How does one get rid of feelings while still trying to be a genuine friend? Difficulty: impossible.

Every year on this date I think about Utøya and one interaction I had that summer 15 years ago. 22th of July 2011 was the biggest terrorist event in Norway and 77 people lost their lives. A guy I met at a party a week before got killed and a few childhood friends of mine survived the terror. 1/4

I slept 17 hours last night and I genuinely thought I was getting better. I’m gutted and scared I’m back to excessive sleeping again.

I got ghosted after two weeks of dating. So naturally, I made a dramatic playlist on Spotify called ”Fuck him“ and now I’m angry cleaning listening to angry music. #DatingPoolNeedsChlorine

UGH. That’s it. Just… UGH. That’s all I’ve got.

I’ve realized that the me in dating after I got ME is very insecure and that’s new to me. I’m constantly driven by fear of rejection because of the illness and it’s especially hard when I catch feelings. I’m so scared of getting my heart broken again or that I’m not fun enough to be with.

I’m mad about the way we lost to England in the world cup yesterday. Not that they didn’t deserve to win, but the ball definitely touched something and the judges and VAR made rediculous decisions. England definitely played a hard game though and I hope they win the cup!

I’ve been sleeping less lately, so I’ve had the capacity to carefully try dating again and I got asked out and I said yes. The guy I’m dating searched up documentaries on YouTube about ME completely unprompted. He might be a good one! Dating with ME is so difficult though.. I’m struggling.

Ro! 🥁

I did something spontaneous today. I’ve saved 30$ each month for over two years now in an index fund and I took some out. I’m sick of not having clean floors.. so I’m going to buy a fancy vacuum robot cleaner. All I have to do is fill/empty the water and dust tank every 9 weeks. I’m so excited!!

Happy Shiba Inu Dog Smiling

Alt: Happy Shiba Inu Dog Smiling and tail wagging!

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I figured out that filing for permanent welfare in Norway costs the welfare office around 6.500$ ish per round. I’m on my second round now. I’m going to keep bleeding them for money until they accept me. Rejected? File again. Rejected? File again.. And again 🤪 I’m petty and stubborn. I’ll win.

You know what makes me really mad today? There isn’t a single place in this city where I can get a good donut.

I saw someone post a tombstone on FB and the birthyear of that guy was the same year I was born, 1993. It made me appreciate how lucky I am to still be alive.

If you ever need to have a good cry, just buy a new bikini and try it on.

I’m watching Rocky for the first time and I think he’s kind of an asshole tbh. Who corners a shy lady like that and refuses to let her leave??

We had a thief in our gardens last night. She stole a few lamb hides and a pair of shoes. I bet she really needed those.

I’m pretty pissed off about feeling hungover all of the time and not even being able to drink alcohol. Like it would be fine if I did drink and it made me feel like this, but I DIDNT DRINK GOD DAMNIT

The beautiful day yesterday feels rotten today.

I had the best day today! It started out rough, but I was able to shake it. Then I spent a few hours in a chair outside with sunglasses drinking soda with my family at my grandma’s birthday party. It was 23 degrees and sunny. Lovely calm conversation. I took this picture before everyone arrived.

What made me an atheist? Menstrual and birth pain. There is no good reason any god would hate women and animals that much.