The people who love me unconditionally, I can't find myself able to love back, because my brain is scared from all the times people pretended to care and hurt me.

When someone tells you they like older guys and you get whiplash, because most of your 20's was wasted due to depression and you still feel young at heart.

Bring back emotional depth in people. It's tiring when no one can handle any emotions other than happy escapism all the time.

Happy #tummytuesday! Decide to recreate one of my favorite gifs I've made of myself today :3

3 nights in a row I've had a crisis about my own life. This shit needs to stop.

I need to stop thinking about love because it's causing me a lot of pain. But it's all I can think about. Nothing else matters to me.

If I can never love again, what else can I strive for?

I want to cry. I'm so empty and lost, and in pain.

I wish someone could actually psychoanalyze me. The people that are supposed to do that just tell me I'm wrong, and I need to go outside, and I don't believe I can get better, therefore I can't.

Would love to meet people that can give my brain a challenge. And no, not the kind of challenge where I have to figure out how to not annoy them. An actual intellectual challenge.

I'll admit, of all the minigames in Bits & Bops, I didn't expect the monkey-snake heist one to be the one living rent free in my head. The theme, music, and difficulty is soooo good.

Why is there still no option to only hide reposts when I'm looking at their profile? I just want to learn things about the people that follow me.

Bluesky@bsky.app · 3d ago

v1.130 is live! Want to follow someone for their posts but not their reposts? Now you can — turn on "Hide reposts in feeds" for any account you follow.

Changed my mind on this, I think. I've been debating between MFF and PAX Unplugged. PAX Unplugged would be a good time without a doubt, MFF is more risky, potentially higher highs but lower lows. I think enough people are going though that I'll be okay.

Brownie Otter θ∆@otterbrownie.bsky.social · 4d ago

Considering dropping MFF. I've started to realize I mostly just go to cons to look for a boyfriend, and they're a terrible place for that.

Considering dropping MFF. I've started to realize I mostly just go to cons to look for a boyfriend, and they're a terrible place for that.

Probably just going to get a fursuit head because all I really want to do is thirst trap people and I don't care about going to cons.

Want to talk to more people but also afraid of rejection...

I don't think I'm actually sexually attracted to people that much... I mean sort of? But normally when I see someone that's hot I think about them being soft and comfy more than anything.

Board game therapy was a great cure for furcon-induced sadness today :3

My public personality is basically being completely nice and agreeable to everything on the outside, but inside wanting to be loved and kept close and unsure how to do that.

It really hurts to see everyone except me experience love.

Not really feeling FD anymore. Probably won't be back tomorrow. Glad I enjoyed my time with this con for most of it though.

I think my interest in people boils down to: if people like me, I like them and want to get to know them more. Maybe stems from a long history of rejection and not wanting to get hurt. Emotional safety is one of the biggest things I look for in people.

When love is the thing missing most in your life, losing a chance to have it hurts even worse. I wish I could just freely date without being devastated the many times something doesn't work out.

Unexpected compliment of the day: "your belly feels like memory foam"

Solid first day of Furrydelphia! (after the awful reg line) Lots of cuddles rubs, and had some very good conversations with good people. My one worry is if anyone I met finds me annoying, but I guess I can't really control that.

I think part of the reason I have trouble accepting compliments or believing them, is the amount of people that have said lots of nice things about me and later left my life.

When you first meet me: "Why's this guy not saying much? Is he uncomfortable?" After I've been around you for a bit: "Omg will he shut up already, he's been going on about board games for hours"

When you come into the cuddle session expecting a big dominant guy but he has the soul of a tiny pet otter.

Why do I bother waiting in a 2 hour line when I don't even want to use the con space and just want to cuddle people in their rooms?

Kind of embarrassing how furcons still can't figure out how to not make the reg line take forever.