I hate myself so much. I don’t think I’ll ever get out of this spiral, ever. It’s been years now. Going to a family reunion didn’t help either because it made me realize how entirely fucked we are and then coming back to MO made it so much worse. I don’t want to die, but I do wish I didn’t exist.
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@otterchu.bsky.social
38/♎️/💍 Freddie Mercury impersonator 🎤, resident Gratuitous Sax fan ✨, wrasslin' enthusiast 💪, Cthulhu cultist 🐙, Vulcan 🖖 Ask me about Tony Shalhoub. Known as churippu/chulipart on other sites. 🌷
Hate that I can’t feel nothing but guilt for still going to Weird Al tonight despite trying to talk myself through it. We bought the tickets months ago when we had no idea what our situation would be like. It’s hard to feel excited about anything rn though because of everything going on.
All I can say about life rn is whoof. At least I got a different job now, hopefully will be starting next week.
Thanks to everyone who has donated so far I have been able to get out of the negative on one card. I still have one more negative balance to pay off, plus we now have limited funds until we get paid again in two weeks.
We have hit some hard times financially after some unexpected expenses went through on a few accounts. Please help out by commissioning me! For a short time I will be doing these NYOP commissions (min. $20, please) I also have $10 simple sketches available (these are quick to get out!)
I am loving the tour selfies @sparksofficial.bsky.social have been posting from New Zealand #fanart #ronmael #russellmael
We have hit some hard times financially after some unexpected expenses went through on a few accounts. Please help out by commissioning me! For a short time I will be doing these NYOP commissions (min. $20, please) I also have $10 simple sketches available (these are quick to get out!)
Would ya look at that… (Now if this was a lifetime of listening to music this would be Queen tbh lol)
Leaving SD soon. I need to win the lotto so I can be out here permanent.
Tony Shalhoub reference in Catholic Church. (Cause of course that’s where my mind went.)
A mutual of mine commissioned me to draw her earliest OC. I had so much fun bringing this character to life. It brings me so much joy being able to draw people’s OC’s since I don’t have many of my own to draw!
Why’d these flights have to be so early? I haven’t been up this early in a while
After waiting a year and a half I get to finally get diagnosed with SOMETHING on Friday! Who wants to take bets on what I got 😎
I feel like if Astarion was a real person he’d be obsessed with Gackt
@karolinesaid.bsky.social commissioned me to add the otter touch to this gorgeous picture of the boys of Sparks!
Literally going crazy that I hadn’t seen the movie “Vibes” until tonight 😭 Firstly, Jeff Goldblum and Cyndi Lauper?! Secondly…PETER FALK?!!! During the opening credits I literally screamed when I saw his name (in turn scaring my cat.)
Going to San Diego for a few days in May. I wish it was for any other reason than a funeral 🫤
The issue of Animerica that made me realize I was with my soulmate. James bought this back in the day and it was one issue I missed. I thought my Hamtaro fan art never made it to the magazine because my local book store never got this issue!
Damn, I’m watching Wrestlemania stuff and I just wanna draw wrestlers again 😞
Forgot to show this off from the new TMBG album. It me. 🙂 (the album is fricking great btw.)
I used to love rainy weather, in fact I literally was only happy when it rained. Now as a chronic migraine sufferer that has them triggered by weather…I’m just sad all the time now.
James reminded me that over the years my cosplay themes have been bunny person or green person. So next cosplay obviously needs to be Bucky O’ Hare.