for once though, i feel like i can focus on my once

things looking so up and so down at the same time

update: new motherly figure just dropped

you ever suddenly realize that you've been afraid of saying 'no' your whole life, but other people always been saying 'no' to you the whole time

so like i didn't rly need to do that

i need to pause existence so bad

so basically i need more ways to be alone by myself

reminiscing my solitude

neeeed a break from existing, just for a teensy weensy bit plz i swear

kinda never allowed to do no thing

is it because im scared to be bored in the darkness of my thoughts

shyan :c@paintom.bsky.social · 2mo ago

why do i overbook myself

why do i overbook myself

sometimes i forget got crazy random lore until its brought up n suddenly the whole room lookin at me

eeeeeepy

meoww

kinda sucks crying over someone who doesn't gaf abt u

i need to disappear

emotional divestment

i should probably be working but i also want a day off

had a dream so bad, even my opp checked up on me in it

losing so much

i might be stooping myself too low actually

hate how much i hate this town now

i wana get high sooooo bad

the feds are investigating my twitter

i just don't want to feel the hurt i just want it to stop :(

it hurts so much

i don't know how to keep acting like it doesn't hurt a lot

sometimes i forget abt this

shyan :c@paintom.bsky.social · 6mo ago

they can outnumber me 8:1 but i still have more skills, experience, and connections than all of them combined. they started the war, but i'm going to fucking win it.

they can outnumber me 8:1 but i still have more skills, experience, and connections than all of them combined. they started the war, but i'm going to fucking win it.