If old people compliment me on my looks then would that mean I have any chance of people *my* age liking how I look? I get so confused. It doesn't count right?
It was pouring today after I left work and the cab had another passenger. He got dropped off at a place I used to live at and just being inside the bounds of those gates made me nostalgic. I still miss living there.
allergies have been flaring up so bad lately that I actually just feel like I'm sick and it's the worst thing ever. oh yeah and huge heat wave coming soon. anyone who can sit here and tell me they enjoy summer in this area is a damn liar
I think I'm gonna have to stay offline for a while and maybe only come on when I have some art I wanna post. I feel extremely sad and nothing I look at online is helping. I'm in need of a little break
I noticed I've been yapping too fucking much and I apologize for that, I'm just getting that stuff out my system and I've been struggling artistically anyway. And I know it's because the shit I'm going through in real life is grinding me down too much. Just bear with me please, friends
I'll be honest I hate opening myself up for critique online when it comes to art. Not because I think I'm perfect, hell no, but because in online spaces it feels like there's always someone in the group that's looking for their chance to humiliate you and I don't wanna deal with that
I worry a lot that my ability to really connect with others is completely shot now that I've been through so much trauma and disappointment related to those things. Expressing myself fully simply doesn't feel normal to me anymore and it's been bothering me for a while now
was never a big fan of art takes that amount to "(x) group are fundamentally incapable of depicting (y) thing correctly or respectfully" There's plenty of bad art but not everything comes from a bad place, that's a reductive thought process to have. it makes you hate shit before even looking at it
It's always eaten me up inside to think that the internet is what it is now. Just a toxic space where everybody hates everybody, when much earlier in my life, I had gotten into using it because I wanted to connect with people who were different from me to begin with. Shit just sucks now
I'm still happy I managed to get all the platinums in this game. If you're wondering why I'm on NTCS-J, it was so I could play a version where the secret level times load correctly. Also I ran into a bug where I was able to do the second cortex fight when I was still missing one gem
I saw everyone doing 3x3s of games and I considered doing one too but I can't narrow faves that far down so have a 5x5. I did this a few years ago but this one's changed up a little. I just went for what represents my tastes. 25 games that changed my brain chemistry
I always wanted to make a sort of journal comic about my problems because it could help my expression and generally be fun but doing so would involve so many deeply personal things for me that sharing it on social media might be dangerous with how hostile audiences can be and that's a shame
Sometimes it helps to appreciate the life you have and the little things that make it worth living. Whether life is sweet or sour. Those things can make you smile!
I don't know exactly why but watching other people completely deify artists lowkey gets on my nerves a little bit and in the worst cases it's made me not want to engage with their work even if I know I'd otherwise very interested in it. Maybe I only think like this because I'm a loser myself