To be loved is to be changed.

It’s wonderful when you can watch a sunset with your Master and then get put into predicament bondage by him with your labia clipped to a water bottle you’re holding. Relationship goals achieved 🥰

Y’all, I’ve found someone. He isn’t on this platform, he’s not insecure or avoidant, he’s around my age (actually 2 years younger) and he doesn’t wear cargo shorts. Basically, he’s a healthy, well adjusted person Finally, he’s an experienced Master and we share many kinks Fingers so crossed 🤞

Cutting off contact permanently with a prior Dom is sometimes necessary for one’s own health and healing. Learned that today. It doesn’t help reopening wounds that have begun to close a bit

From now on, no more spending effort on people who don’t give it back yet for some reason expect it to

I. Hate. Shoulder mounts. Which is why I do them 😭

I may be heartbroken and lonely, but I still have standards

Learned a fun little inverted move that is shockingly not that hard to get into and hold and I have no idea what it’s called (might be an inverted flamingo)

Had a date last night with a Dominant and I realized how much I’ve changed. The guy had experience but I wasn’t intimidated or swept away. He also tried to use moves Doms typically use on beginners and I just effortlessly moved around them. I also realized I don’t need any Dom, I need the right one.

Excuse me while I curl up into a ball for an hour or two before returning to adult responsibilities

Me: I need to become insanely fit and sexy while also somehow covering myself with bruises (The heavens part and a beam of light extends to my home pole)

Men, if you want a threesome with two women, get it yourself. Show some damn hustle and initiative, bros

Seriously considering getting into pro Domming because these past few months have made me feel so disempowered

Feeling a bit vulnerable right now. Feeling like insecure people just want to “consume” me so they can feel more confident about themselves and honestly, I’m so done with that noise

There’s a fascinating conversation about consent going on TikTok about this voice memo from a guy about wanting sex on the second date if he’s invited to the woman’s house and honestly it makes me thankful that I’m a kinkster who has known about consent and clear communication for a long time.

Hey chat, qq. If you were trying to mend a connection with someone you cared about but hurt deeply, would you contact them with a big emotional text and then, when they agree to meet you, you say you’re out of town for an extended period of time and then not schedule anything concrete immediately?

now listening (because it suits my mood and my life rn)

And in the end, my pain meant nothing. I meant nothing…

I wish I liked boring sex and vanilla relationships 😭

I definitely was struggling today in pole, but I got a fun little invert into Cupid complete with a tiny shimmy to show I was stable. Not too long ago that Cupid seemed impossible

I’ve been away from pole class for two weeks now due to pride, business travel, and then yesterday’s hilariously bad outing at the Freedom Fart Fair. Did get some practice on Friday (badly attempting a crucifix drop) Going back today and expecting the worst haha

I am happy to report that pole dancing, running, and lifting has paid off

To my downstairs neighbor, I’m sorry. I’m done with the heels tonight

im heartbroken again :(

im feral again

You know, something amazing happened today. I went clothes shopping as I needed to update my summer wardrobe a little bit, and I loved seeing my body in the mirror. It’s become so muscular and strong this past year and although I’m no longer a size 0 or 2, I love how I look and feel now

I have an important announcement

I didn’t replace you. How could I replace someone who shaped my sexual identity? How could I replace someone who I clung to for months as they disappeared in front of me? How could I replace someone who despite everything, will be one of the great loves of my life? I love you and also fuck you.

In my working out heavily, staying functional during the day while going over old texts and sobbing during the night era

I love a man in a suit… particularly when I’m bent over his knee 🥵