Populus Ursus

@populus89.bsky.social

A bear/dog that 3d models, animates and rigs. | He/him | 🏳️‍🌈pan | furry | engineer | 30+| 🇪🇺 | 🔞Adults only🔞 💍 @lavblueberry.bsky.social 💞 Commission info, examples and queue: https://populusursus.carrd.co/

I went no contact with my family 7 years ago. Today I found out my grandfather died 3 days ago. It's astounding how I don't feel anything at all. Grief? Sadness? Nothing. I have no emotional connection with them except seeing them as a threat to my safety.

It's a déjà rêvé - "already dreamed" commonly associated with seizures. It hit me twice today and it completely knocked me off my feet. It's an incredibly horrifying experience and all I felt were my nightmares. NO doctor even MENTIONED something like that can happen. Fuck the neurologists here.

Populus Ursus@populus89.bsky.social · 3mo ago

Got what I can assume are 4 different partial seizures hidden under the guise of panic attacks. Each one felt like every single nightmare and disturbing dream I had in my life condensed into 2 minutes. With fear that goes beyond any fear I felt in my life before. Neat.

And now whole house smells like lavender :3 🪻✨️💜 Boil it in twice amount of water as you have lavender for about 10 mins, strain lavender tea, add twice amount of sugar and some lemon juice, boil until thickens and voila! ✨️ You got some aromatic lavender syrup! 💜✨️ Good for tea, coffee or just water

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🌙☁️ Lav 🫐 Blueberry ☕️📚 is in burnout recovery@lavblueberry.bsky.social · 4w ago

My hands smell like mint, blueberry and lavender. 🫐🪻🌿 And Im about to do something aromatic today! 💜✨️

Some blueberries, freshly cut mint and lavender flowers

🌈✨Still have 2 slots left for Pride Paws! ✨🌈 I wanted to do this for last week of June, but got taken down by heatwave + angry tummy, soo... July's pride paws discounted for last two slots!! ✨💜 (also thank you for previous orders - it was really helpful for our June's budget! 😭💜) shorturl.at/c7MuO

Rise your Pride Paws! YCH by LavBlueberry (@LavBlueberry)

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