Was out with my mom, it was pretty nice. Weather was good, but I did feel like my outfit was not *it*. I do need some nice clothes for fall. Maybe a nice jacket. But it's all soo expensive :I

I think I‘ve barely slept this night. I feel a bit dizzy

Sometimes living is just enough

Apparently it’s not normal to pretty much never leave the house? Kinda got me by surprise yesterday.

My peak moment of our halloween party was when we all sniffed each other’s butts like the curious puppies we are

People always say that I‘m mean, But I don’t want to be! I‘d rather be a good girl. I just need some *convincing* at times hehe :3c

Lately my playlist has been deluded with non-postpunk. This is unacceptable. I shall forever be drenched in melancholy!

I wish more people told me that big boobs are actually undesirable. It‘d be better if I had small boobs. Like ideally they‘d be barely noticeable. That‘d suit me. I‘d look great! Please don’t talk about my body like that. My chest has always been a major source of dysphoria.

I‘m not really doing a whole lot right now, yet I feel so so tired. Curious as to why that is.

Into the Fire Pg. 1 //dubcon

I should go out more. Meet people, friends, lovers, hubby and family while I still have time. Though everyone else is quite busy sadly <.< Had a really nice walk just bringing away a parcel for Lenny and grabbing food :3

Always on top. Such is the way of the lap dog. Sofa > Bed always. You can’t change my mind. I‘m fucking where I live, not where I sleep.

yuritober or whatever

I have found Lenny’s weakspot. One kiss there and he’s freaking out because it tickles so much. Suffice to say, I‘m very kissy in moments like that. Poor boy is completely paranoid now :3

[Quest] Find out how easily I melt. [Reward] The bullying and biting stops temporarily.

HRT is magic. I've never felt interested in becoming a mom, yet here I am, dysphoric because I can't get pregnant

Got myself this cute little Barkas. What a creature!

Nice shaven again. I feel so smooth, so feminine. It’s pure bliss 💖✨

I‘ve only just recently realized the extent to which what‘s in my head is different than what I let people on about me. Not sure if being open solves this; maybe a disclaimer? Maybe my style of communication is just shit?

Girls will be girls 💅💖✨

self portrait 2

I was bored again, so I ordered myself a model Transall. So excited! :3 Finally a conversation starter for me to yap about how they sometimes went over my parents‘ house on go-around for the small airfield nearby :0

People confuse me. Like this one guy was clearly interested in me sexually, but he‘s being distant and wants to get to know each other?? This seems to be a pattern with other people too? Like I‘m available for hookups - don’t look, just touch already ffs.

Shitty hung over horny pics are always the best hnngh 🥴 I‘ll ask Lenny for another photo shoot maybe :3

Still feeling very subby, bottom-ish as of late; Sitting in someone‘s lap, their bulge rubbing against my thighs, while we‘re kissing and I‘m getting choked and my boobs groped. That‘d be just the weekend plan for me!

Hung (not me, just a new plane)

Everyone tells me I‘m passing, yet I‘m not. How does that work? I finally feel good in my body, yet people are needlessly cruel to me? Why?