Random Access Memory
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random access memory is lost when the computer is turned off spam + doodle scrap acc i will forget it exists until i dont lol, sometimes 🔞
slowly being driven mad by a jrpg im playing w my irls bc it has one of the most intriguing worldbuilding ive come across that is masterfully dripfed thru npc dialogue + a very unique battle system i rly enjoy. but i cant rec it to any1 bc the game aggressively refuses to have a single story beat
I’m so good at starting new save files in bloodborne
ngl job apps for art recently have been grim as hell i straight up gave up and starting looking for a desk job somewhere 💀suicide inducing getting ghosted for impossible jobs with awful companies but ig if having a parasocial relationship with a unicorn studio keeps me going cant be that bad
okay fine i guess portfoliomaxxing isnt a complete case of a fruitless exercise in misery anymore
Putting Hays Code up on the shelf along with Puritanism and Censorship until people learn how to use the term properly
oh your entire industry is crumbling because of externalities outside your control? Have you thought of starting a patreon so that you have to do a bunch of extra work on top of that?
elf scribbles while i wait for food to cook
Our fridge broke down 🥲:gun all our freezer supplies just completely defrosted overnight bruh this sucksssss
inviting another limp wristed mentally ill bisexual fop to live in my mind palace im so predictable this is honestly embarrassing for me
scribbling concepts for my new dorian dolly
this is a sourpuss moment but i think ive seen enough of these 'artist post you X art' quote chains i think the uplifting concept is nice but the niche vagueness of these boxes to put everything in is getting out of hand
me when a shot is composed with some kind of architectural feature acting as a frame: oh now this is cinema alright
sorry this is just turning into a liveblog account these days but as much as i wish it were otherwise unfortunately i do watch media more than i draw porn
fantastic new description just dropped. god me too bro
Been reading Dorian Grey throughout today after procrastinating on it for literal years and this book is literally the opposite of a healing effect on me
ohhh my god we might actually be able to move out of this stupid fucking flat to somewhere nicer and cheaper. this would actually be a godsend. holy shit
Going to bed 3/4 of way thru Carmilla reading this blind is like the best thing ever. Bro Dracula WHO
the carmilla yuri is not fucking around girls youre not even 25 pages deep
think i just feel mad whenever ppl say VNs are an easy project as if writing an entire short story then adding visuals, music and sound, troubleshooting technical problems is somehow easier than any other 3hr scope game. all game design is hard different projects just lean on different pillars
have nothing to do but spin wool until my painkillers kick in (if they kick in 😰) been thinking about ways to get more practical exp w/ game dev - idk how long my job is gonna last+ my portfolio clearly isn't cutting it, so Ive been thinking a good use of time is maybe making VNs w public domain txt
didnt get my period for 3 blissful months because of stress (ironic) then woke up today and feel like i got body slammed by a truck
do you ever watch a piece of media and think you mustve had some kind of psychic mind link to it up until this point where it used a kind of sick mental puppetry to influence your work before you ever engaged with it. bc thats me with the crow 1994 rn
getting knocked out of my okay mood 15 min before 1st therapy appointment this is gonna go so badsly for me
Elderly family member in A+E. Another one insanely ill. Everyone’s nerves shot through and stressed trying to manage everything. I’d love if the world could leave the ppl I care about alone.
i h8 landlords + agents man you can be like 'we have black mould growing in the staircase' and theyre like 'damn that sucks ☹️ i guess we cant do anything about that' bestie they are establishing government back there
Baby boy passed away in the night. Didn’t even last till his vet appt. Really fucking miserable tonight ngl
