my new daily practice is to attempt to become so bored that I start checking in with my toes to see how they're feeling
something to be said for refusing to cultivate good taste in certain arenas so that you can continue to delight in the cheap stuff forever
someone on here recently said something about abstraction as the desperate retreat of the avoidantly attached mind but I can’t find it so now I am just saying it again. that’s oral tradition baby
we are convinced by things that show the traces of their own evolution
when you cried your tiny heart out to all those albums in high school you were actually investing in your future self, who can now put on said albums and power through punishing tasks purely on the strength of a single remembered adolescent emotion
I dreamed I was the deepfates program. then I awoke, and now I wonder
left my frontend eng job to go to drawing pictures of buildings school but now juries for drawing pictures of buildings school are FOUR (4) days away and am vibrating with how fervently I wish I could be writing react code for bluesky interfaces instead rn… cruel fate
the vast and endless sea, the cold and distant stars, the long and winding road,
there is something quite romantic about having an ancient egyptian pharaoh trapped in the labyrinthine interiors of the golden pyramid you wear around your neck
regular body parts: I'm growing 😇 teeth: in the dark secret places of your skull where I have rooted I am becoming hard and calcified and strong. I lie in wait. one day I will destroy the other teeth in my path and erupt through your soft, fleshy gums
when you have a crush on someone and your entire awareness reorients to their being, your skin suddenly hypersensitive to a fleeting touch, the sound of their voice grazing you like a physical presence
the fact that we can drive, as a species, feels directly rooted in this really distinctly human facility for extending our body map beyond our physical body, into our tools
if you do not have time for mind altering substances you can simply develop moderate to severe myopia, remove your corrective lenses, and turn to the nearest light source to see it explode into a splintered web of intricate geometries. it’ll do in a pinch
the sacred seriousness of genuine play, reverent, surrendering, free
sempervirens@camille.bsky.social · 3y agoi want to live life at the intersection of deep seriousness and deep playfulness
happy bicycle day! lsd more than anything else has given me a home in this world, a warm and invincible peace, strange to think of its discovery as an accident of history eighty years ago in a quiet town amidst a raging world war
some days you wake up and understand a little more intimately the ways in which laziness is downstream from fear
“we are anyway too busily engaged building structures within ourselves that might house our spirits,”
I am always searching for more of my tribe (girls with uncomfortably intense hand fetishes)
one of my least favorite sayings is “it’s not that deep”. feels like narrative violence, feels like a denial of some fundamental yearning for understanding, and why shouldn’t we get to use whatever silly wedge we want to crack the universe wide open
every time you smell something it means a little bit of that thing is now already inside of you
if I appear poorly socialized on here please forgive me. my formative (and only) birdsite experiences were 1. silently, longingly lurking in tpot and 2. running an unhinged stan account for a chinese actor dating conspiracy
I want to bury my fingers in the damp earth and breathe in the scent of distant rain and stroke the rough bark of a linden tree and also plug myself directly into the endless torrential matrix until the atomized fragments of my mind dissolve into pure information, is that So much to ask
book titles that are complete sentences: the word for world is forest. we have never been modern. seeing is forgetting the name of the thing one sees. the body keeps the score. you must change your life
is there a word or phrase for the delicate, cognitively demanding art of predicting someone else's familiarity with a subject perfectly enough that you don't end up with "I feel stupid because I don't understand your reference" or "I'm insulted that you didn't think that I knew that already"
there are more territories in heaven and earth, horatio, than are dreamt of in your cartographies