Hey so update, I gotta find a new place to live again. Just found out today that they're selling the house as is, when previously someone else was gonna buy it and let the people who are renting out rooms stay. I swear to god, I can't catch a break.
Sae
@saebye.bsky.social
She/Her Former Level Designer for Open Fortress, currently in a weird limbo state regarding that. I make stuff sometimes. It's not the best, but hey, it's something. Profile picture is made by Howdot.
Finally got around to withdrawing the money from the gofundme. Been dragging my feet because of mental illness cropping back up again, been making everything an absolute slog. This is alongside even more shit happening, but for the sake of brevity I won't elaborate here. 1/2
(TW for ED mention.) MFW (my face when) I know that the first year of my transition has been knee capped from being blue-balled with food from when I lived with my parents, alongside recovering from what's most certainly some kind of eating disorder (I don't have a reaction image for this):
Funny I mentioned BPD lmao, my online support system (my only current one) just collapsed in under 24 hours lmao. Living the dream lol.
Sae@saebye.bsky.social · 2mo agoBPD is a fucking nightmare to do any research for (actual research, not just TikTok bullshit or whatever), because every time I want to further ways I can properly cope with it: I get bombarded with statements from others saying that anyone who has this are awful people to be around lol. (1/2)
BPD is a fucking nightmare to do any research for (actual research, not just TikTok bullshit or whatever), because every time I want to further ways I can properly cope with it: I get bombarded with statements from others saying that anyone who has this are awful people to be around lol. (1/2)
imagine being a xen creature just like vibing in one of those blue pools that heals you and then out of nowhere you're teleported to like a walmart
Love that my graphics card decided to shit the bed right when I moved in. Been having issues with it ever since, and it's been making using my computer for any longer than 5 minutes nigh impossible.
Quadruple late update (as I'm still trying to recover from this emotionally lmao), I finally have a place to stay since my parents forced me to rent out a room from a friend. Not complaining about the room itself as it's fine, but I'm still coming to terms with being sidelined by family lol. (1/3)
TRIPLE UPDATE (I'm gonna curl up into a ball and cry lol), my parents are kicking me out again, as I've not fulfilled their standards of applying to jobs and rooms for rent in the past few days. This is after I almost got sent to the hospital by my counselor today due to mental health issues. (1/2)
Please help i will do anything i am capible of
Bloxxy System | use #tags@bloxxel64colonthree.xyz · 2mo agoFolks, I recently ran out of money from my paycheck and I don’t have enough to pay for gas or any other bills. I’m not exactly good or anything but if you want like a shitty doodle or something in return I’ll see what I can do #mutualaid #trans #money #needhelp ko-fi.com/bloxxel64col...
DOUBLE UPDATE (My life is a rollercoaster and I'm gonna hurl), I'm back at my parent's house. I was able to talk with them in order to get an extension while I search for a proper place to live. I'm on a day-by-day system so it's still a bit unstable, but we'll take those. (1/2)
Sae@saebye.bsky.social · 2mo agoUPDATE to this as promised (apologies if it seems like I'm milking this, that's not my intention). My parents are insistent on kicking me out tonight, so I will finish packing my essentials before leaving to crash somewhere for the night. (1/2)
UPDATE to this as promised (apologies if it seems like I'm milking this, that's not my intention). My parents are insistent on kicking me out tonight, so I will finish packing my essentials before leaving to crash somewhere for the night. (1/2)
Sae@saebye.bsky.social · 3mo agoHeya, I admittedly don't use Bluesky a whole lot, but I just wanted to say that I'm getting kicked out of my home in a few days with no current place to live. I have a fundraiser link attached to this. Even if you cannot donate, sharing it would be much appreciated. www.gofundme.com/f/trans-girl...
An update on this, first on what's going on and then a thank you. The date got moved to Monday, when I previously thought I would be kicked out today. My parents told me that I need to have everything packed by then in order to be out of the house. They also mentioned about snagging (1/4)
Sae@saebye.bsky.social · 3mo agoHeya, I admittedly don't use Bluesky a whole lot, but I just wanted to say that I'm getting kicked out of my home in a few days with no current place to live. I have a fundraiser link attached to this. Even if you cannot donate, sharing it would be much appreciated. www.gofundme.com/f/trans-girl...
Heya, I admittedly don't use Bluesky a whole lot, but I just wanted to say that I'm getting kicked out of my home in a few days with no current place to live. I have a fundraiser link attached to this. Even if you cannot donate, sharing it would be much appreciated. www.gofundme.com/f/trans-girl...
Donate to Trans Girl in need of Financial Help, organized by Sae Zellerhoff
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Just wanted to say here, thank you for everyone who has donated to and shared the gofundme link. I cannot express enough gratitude for the traction it's gotten so far, so just know that your actions have meant a lot so far. <3
Heya, I admittedly don't use Bluesky a whole lot, but I just wanted to say that I'm getting kicked out of my home in a few days with no current place to live. I have a fundraiser link attached to this. Even if you cannot donate, sharing it would be much appreciated. www.gofundme.com/f/trans-girl...
Donate to Trans Girl in need of Financial Help, organized by Sae Zellerhoff
Heya, my name is Sae and I'm a 19 year old trans woman in need of immediate help. … Sae Zellerhoff needs your support for Trans Girl in need of Financial Help
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Finally got a bra for the first time now that I actually have boobs, and it's pretty 'pog' as the kids say.
I find this funny because every time I go back to using Bluesky, I get flashbanged with furry art. It's like, I wanna keep tabs on my friends while not looking at anthro animals all day please. I don't wanna unfollow people, but if I wanna use Bluesky I'm gonna have to lol.
Sae@saebye.bsky.social · last yr.I always find it funny how a lot of my online friends are furries while I am not. It feels like I'm just kind of cheering them on as they fill my 'following' timeline with furry art while I just watch from afar.
At last, the elusive Adult Link Mask has been discovered... along with a few other things. It was probably called the Hero's Mask, if internal names are any indication. tcrf.net/Prerelease:T... #MajorasMask #Zelda #TheLegendofZelda #Nintendo
I've decided to step back as co-lead and gameplay director for Open Fortress, though I will still be doing voices, SFX, and writing. It's in good hands with @elliotskeleton.bsky.social, and I hope you all look forward to the Steam release! I'll be there playing with you all when it drops!
So funny story, this evolved into me now being on the Open Fortress team. About two months late to the news, but it shows how much I use Bluesky lol.
Sae@saebye.bsky.social · last yr.Especially with the Open Fortress steam page being up and school wrapping up, I got to step my mapping game up lol. Maybe expect something this summer, but don't bet money on it.
Alpha 3 of Disposal has been released! After a long time on the backburner, it has been given a minor detailing facelift, layout changes, and finally sinks that 200 pound slipgate. Get on fragging and remember to turn on your Geiger counter! #openfortress #mapping tf2maps.net/downloads/dm...
The want to create something but being unable to actually create it is a Sisyphean task for me. It's why I've never been able to create an original map layout. Being unable to take what I know and apply it to mapping is always *so* motivating.
the consistent fatal flaw of all hero shooters is that none of them are team fortress 2, with the sole exception of team fortress 2, which instead suffers from being team fortress 2