S, at least in part

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When you just want someone to do something surprisingly kind and beautiful for you, but you feel that there’s something gray in the air, and that you’d reject any care outright, as if you didn’t deserve it, that it was impossible somehow, though you long for it, to be between arms, between thighs

What if I find you finishing up some work thing, after hours when you should have logged off already, and just as you sigh and rub the back of your neck, my hand touches the spot just above your elbow, pulling you toward me so that you tilt your chin up to me and the collar of your shirt hangs low—

When you just want someone to do something surprisingly kind and beautiful for you, but you feel that there’s something gray in the air, and that you’d reject any care outright, as if you didn’t deserve it, that it was impossible somehow, though you long for it, to be between arms, between thighs

When you’re falling asleep on the couch and they bring you a blanket and a pillow but also their hand heavy and warm on your hip—and you hear the lip bite in their shaky exhale. You turn your head over your shoulder and say, innocently, “what?” but you know exactly what—

Have you thought about burying your shoulder in the space between their chest and bicep, your arm resting heavy on their ribs and belly as they breathe into your embrace, only slowly they stir, one hip rising in the air and suddenly they’re on top of you, their thighs trap you—gods yes please yes

Have you ever woken to the glow of their phone in the middle of the night and then turned toward them, draping a heavy arm across their torso—it’s warmer than you expected and they exhale shakily when they shift their hips toward you, a knee coming up against your thigh which opens, opens so easily

Have you ever seen them hold their breath, knit their brow, clench their jaw, and when you moan, “please, give it to me,” they struggle even more intensely, their body locking up until finally you whisper those same words and look into their eyes and you watch them break and soften and fall into you