Collie

@servicegriffin.bsky.social

He/him 🏳️‍⚧️ Aroace. Catholic 🇻🇦 30s, adore fiction and fandoms. Disabled autistic adult. Recovering from BPD and trauma, C-PTSD. I ship lucilith 🍐🍎 Sometimes repost NSFW 🔞 minors do not interact.

Society seems to have become allergic to complexities existing. As an autistic prone to cognitive rigidity and black and white thinking, this blows my mind. I spent decades learning to see the grey areas everyone else could see and now it's as if I'm the only one seeing them.

BPD + c-PTSD combo be like "I'll never talk to you because I don't want to bother you but I'll still split if I think you're mad at me" (Splitting refers to a particular state of mind characterized by intense distress, fight or flight, and black and white thinking. Not actions.)

I was assuming Alastor never successfully summoned Lucifer, but what if he actually did but Lu only shows up in voice like “who’s this?? Is this thing on? *taps the mic* “ Al tries to speak but Lu constantly interrupts him not caring at all. Comments on the bad decor and then decides to hang up.

With an isolated traumatic event, stability is how the nervous system learns it is safe and that it does not need to constantly scan for threats. Without prolonged stability, the nervous system never gets that signal.

*Stolas is a gay man who has been through homophobia at the hands of the Goetia monarchy for years and had to repress himself and he’s suffered comphet (sexual abuse) and domestic violence and lost everything for standing up for himself, Blitz and the others* Morons: Stolas hasn’t been punished!

I feel like a lot of my intellectualism was fed by reading C.S Lewis and G. K. Chesteron in grade school & reading a lot of early 20th century literature. I think these guys were really onto something. Would love to see it and an appreciation for logic & reason make a comeback.