I have two simultaneous infections and there’s no sign the antibiotics are working yet. I have struggled with health fears intensely since Covid so I’m not having a good time, spare some positive thoughts for me I guess.

I’ve never used alcohol markers. That ends today. Here is Karsst, from a Lower Decks TTRPG. Everyone keeps giving them radishes and they are confused. My first impression is I do not like how much markers bleed on my sketch paper.

Did you know that if you clench your jaw too much from stress, it can block your Eustachian tubes causing fluid to build up and creating hearing loss? I learned things today. Guess who has two blocked ears and TMJ disorder.

I did not sleep. I will go do that. Watched Damnation Alley tonight for the first time since I was 12 and realized it was the source of my obsession with having an apocalypse survival wagon. It looks like I won’t need mine yet, so that’s good.

I already voted early, but apparently the regime sent its goon squad to my city’s polls because it’s the only blue spot in North Dakota. Aren’t we special.

The night before Halloween, I had our traditional TTRPGween where we play spooky roleplaying games with atmosphere. I think this year was the best yet for decor thanks to roommates. I had a flickering torch bulb in a lamp in the corner of the room and a Halloween tree not shown. Dad for scale.

I couldn’t hand out candy but I got to see so many nice costumes through the door camera so that was fun. Roommate handed out candy for me in a Star Trek uniform.

Half of my holiday memories are of sitting in a clinic waiting room because chronic illness peaks during stress- even the good stress. So happy Halloween from the waiting room. Not what I wanted to do today but not unexpected. I got too excited I guess.

Every good person from my childhood is passing away. Only the evil ones are left clinging to life like a turd to a pig’s ass.

Had two simultaneous flares of different chronic illnesses and now an ear infection. I love fall but my body does not and is making sure I know it.

It was just a really nice day today and no amount of dog poop stuck to my rollator wheels could have ruined it. But it sure did try because it was a lot of poop. Hopefully dog…

The problem with getting the perfect sticker is figuring out where to put it.

I’m 40 now so I am allowed to give cryptic advice to young people now and complain about 40% more things.

This is how you Halloween. We have some great houses on our street.

It’s very hard living in a split level home with an ankle sprain and a dog. I despise split level homes. They were designed to torment the physically disabled.

Added a new sticker to my car because I seem to spend all my time by Bemidji lately.

I watched Ernest: Scared Stupid to welcome in the month of October. The vibes have been set. Autumnal creeping may commence. The world needs more slapstick horror imo

A freshly hatched dragonfly being moved to (hopefully) a safer location.

Found myself at Lost Lake with my Polaroid camera. It rained the whole time. It was really peaceful.

The steepness of my financial decline can be measured in the months of planning my 40th birthday which went from let’s rent a screen at a little local theater and get a fursuit head to I’ll go to a cheap Mexican place for lunch specials by myself and pretend I’m not sad and also in debt again

The truth does not become less true because someone with great power tells a louder lie. -Stella Carlson, “Pink Jacket Lady”

I want to order takeout from local restaurants but I require you to have online ordering because I’m autistic and can’t phone. Please. I hate chains. I beg you to let me give you my scant money.

Interesting dream last night. A chunk of my hometown got The End of Oak Streeted into the Planet of the Apes (1970s) world. It was very violent. Eventually I found a way out and had to help my old art mentor pick art pieces to rescue from his house before leaving. Zira and Cornelius were helpful.

A close person is having their citizenship audited. They aren’t in danger (probably) but it’s a blatant attempt to extract fines from the state as punishment for things because there’s a time limit to respond with complicated paperwork and heavy fines if it’s not exact.

Time to go back to hiding to not trigger my ptsd for a couple days.

The idiots who believe smoking prevents covid might outlive us all through societal collapse because they don’t rely on technology/internet, instead using durable social connections. Natural selection doesn’t favor intelligence, only adaptability. So don’t be a hermit, it’s bad for survival.

Sometimes so many things are going on around you but not happening to you that it feels like sitting in the eye of a hurricane. Even though I don’t own the stress, just being there is stressful. It will shift, I just don’t know when.

REI had a sale so that means it’s time for my once a year pair of pants. I buy the same pants. I just get another one of whatever color is on sale. That’s the limit of my clothes shopping. My shirts come from gift shops on trips and my socks and underwear come from online bulk packs.

I said it a year ago and I’ll say it again. No one should be traveling here. No one should be buying mass produced goods from here. Money is power. Do not give more. It is like pouring powder into a keg.