I am taking like 8 different psychoactive medication things but all they ever did was lower my anxiety somewhat, I’m not having panic attacks where I’m running around screaming every day, but everything else has stayedthesmaeraaaaa The descent of no, i am unravelling i think i will die soon??.? Mooo

Something is broken, and no doctors could find what it is… They say I’m healthy, but I don’t feel alive most times... Nothing brings me joy lately. Can’t focus on any task. Can only distract myself from oblivion by aggressively stimming which gives me concussions, or by spending and getting in debt.

I’m feeling a little better. Thanks a ton to everyone who reached out. I wish I could say more right now, but I’ve been really burnt out lately. Yet another meeting with a psychologist tomorrow. More bureaucracy, more documents and interviews… I’m tired of it…

Does anyone here have any experience with Haiku OS? I have 3 WiFi cards, and I couldn’t get any of them to work. WiFi support seems exceptionally horrendous with this OS. No updates for many years. I want to use Haiku for its gorgeous gui, but man is everything else about it nasty underbaked garbage

Why am I typing all this out. None of you will hear me. None of you really care about me as a person, either. You’d keep it that way, if you could. We’d talk for a few days and you’d eventually ghost me, like everyone else. You are not really concerned, outside of losing one source of fat furry art.

I accept my destiny as a slave of instinct, as a slave of my hunger and pain, as a slave to the nature that conceived me. I will never be a slave to another man. No slave to beurocracy, to law, to economy, to borders, to things that do not exist in reality. When has humanity stopped being for humans

I kinda want to try this suicide thing out. I tried stabbing myself with a knife a few times, but I just couldn’t find the courage to push it all the way through! Maybe I’ll find it eventually…

When you see it…. You’ll shit brix

Hi I’m lonely and bored let’s be friends and play video games hi will u be my friend blinks at you with my autistic lashes ;3c

a deer who likes to run in the quiet semi-industrial areas of southern etobicoke, on a warm september morning

Bye bye cinnamon hello xfce or is I like to call it ksyfs

shoo𝓯𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓴@shoofreak.bsky.social · 4w ago

Xfce calls to me

When I find a nice healthplay drawing that has the character’s pulse shown somewhere, I tend to open a bpm calculator website and manually reproduce their heartbeat by rhythmically tapping/clicking the beat button and matching the bpm values to the ones seen in the drawings! U should try #healthplay

When I find a nice healthplay drawing that has the character’s pulse shown somewhere, I tend to open a bpm calculator website and manually reproduce their heartbeat by rhythmically tapping/clicking the beat button and matching the bpm values to the ones seen in the drawings! U should try #healthplay

She is very much at her peak #fatfur #healthplay #fetish

Fun fact: Bicycles are the most widespread method of transportation for geogosskans. Roads are mostly traveled on by bike, even cross-country trips. Public transport is usually minimal and underfunded. Cars exist but they are ENTIRELY unregulated, so most of them are extremely dangerous

Xfce calls to me

Gotta make fat more important to Geogosskan culture... currently, Geogoss society at large is recovering from two consecutive eras of oppression. First: autocracies, second: anarchocapitalism. Bodily autonomy, freedom of beauty and self were integral in antiquity, but were suppressed by later regime

Here’s a reminder In case anyone forgot: Fat people are real. They can be beautiful, just like anyone else. Art with a cute/attractive/risqué depiction of a fat person doesn’t immediately mean it’s a fetish. A surprising number of people in the fatfur community aren’t aware this, it seems…

Ughhh I want to draw a pair of giant, glossy lips sooo baaad I need to draw a character with lips so big that it’s their entire faceeee im dyin for a chance

Stay golden, Vibri!!! #fatfetish #fatfur #vibri #fetish

an album piece done for @1stargachaclub.bsky.social !

Don’t wanna start shit, and I’ll delete this post if it crosses a line, but there is a certain fatfur artist, Garuda six, that makes me suspicious and kind of uncomfortable. The way he talks, draws, the things he posts and doesn’t… It screams conservative right winger. Does anyone else feel this way

Just got a Microsoft sidewinder dual strike! What a bizarre controller! It works good enough on Linux. For best compatibility, I got a controller mapping app and set that swivelling stick to function as a mouse. I’ll need to get used to this! (Sorry for the crusty video… I had to compress it… sawb…)

Every time someone gives their anthro shark character hair, an angel loses its wings…

CW: same as qrt, extreme healthplay, internal, view at your own discretion heha rent lowering machine gun go brrrrrrrrrrrrrrr, finally finished this thing

What started as just another growth spurt caused by hereditary mutant genes has irreversibly transformed Kehito, the previously scrawny, nerdy geo, into a busty boy of immense proportions! …To say he felt embarrassed is putting it lightly… mayyy have since become a bit of an awkward shut-in… #fatfur

Thought this old drawing deserved some more love! :3c #fatfur

I would like to own a Panasonic 3DO one day! Really interesting console… While it’s in many ways an inferior Sega Saturn, and the newer console inherited a lot of games from it, the 3DO still has a few funky exclusives that I’d like to try! I also love the bios menu it’s got

youtu.be/Mt-Tr3I5RSI Console mods like these piss me off. These old devices are no longer in active production. The supply of original hardware is shrinking as the machines age and break. You’d take a perfectly good console and butcher it for what? Le heccin awesome chungus gimmick!? Shaking my ass.

Can’t Believe This Is a REAL GameCube

YouTube video by Macho Nacho Productions

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