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well, today has been pretty miserable. there's a major wildfire in my city and my apartment is in the evacuation area. hope my home is still there when I'm able to go back

considering messaging a random person I haven't talked to in years and pretending I got hacked just to see how they'd react

i love when music feels like an inner ear massage and there's at least two good ones in that niche this year

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my favorite kind of musical experience is listening to well-mixed and dimensional sound art/field recordings late at night and getting scared because I can't tell which sounds are happening inside my headphones

I normally don't like anison jazz cover things, but this Evangelion one is so special. Conducted by Shiro Sagisu, the series composer, himself. Megumi Hayashibara singing the vocal themes. There's an arrangement of a late '50s Miles Davis tune. Moyoco Anno drew the cover art. It's got everything.

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I do think it's cute to see people watching End of Evangelion for the first time and patting themselves on the back for identifying its themes as if the final third of the film isn't spent monologuing them to you directly. it's a rite of passage

one little thing I find endearing about Hideaki Anno is his enduring love of cats. the Gainax office cat appears in a Kare Kano ED, he voices one of the cats in FLCL himself, and in the Tokyo street segments of End of Evangelion he makes sure to sneak in a shot of this beautiful creature.

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still just as devastating as it was when I first saw it at the age of sixteen. it's a good feeling to check your progress against an apparition of your past, newly determined to live a truer life, and to feel like you've mostly done right by yourself.

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I love having seasons where I renew my lifelong obsession with evangelion. there's hardly anything more fun than staying up all night reading evageeks forum threads until you're falling asleep at the computer

one thing I do like about myself is that I have a very warm smile that instantly disarms strangers when they're about to get upset at me. I'm too cute to get mad at

it's funny to have been told for so many years that Evangelion Death & Rebirth is nonessential viewing when it's maybe the most interesting anime anthology film ever made. the new animations, music cues, and redrawn shots are so compelling.

a good illustration of my strange completionist sickness: I wanted to listen to "Sound and Vision" but realized I didn't have any Bowie albums on this computer. I downloaded 37 albums and didn't allow myself to listen to the song I wanted to hear until I had every release from 1967 to '87

got myself a big chocolate chip cookie as a treat and as I was opening it the other end of the packaging came loose and it fell straight onto the ground. real charlie brown moment

being an absolute freak about music is so awesome. I find an album that is the best thing I've heard every other day and it makes me feel so indescribably happy that I want to keep living even when life is otherwise torturous

it's cool how all my friends like taking me to record stores because they know I'll go beast mode and start yapping about everything in the place.

it's 2026 and the prince love symbol is still not a part of unicode standard character sets. it's time to get serious

one of my favorite artists had their commissions open for like 30 minutes and I managed to get in right before they filled up. today's a beautiful day

something neat about douga sketches that I didn't realize until I owned one... there's lineart on the front of the page and shading on the back that you'll only see when it's over a lightbox. appreciating the lovingly shaded cleavage on her big beautiful boobs

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