⠀i’m almost never serious , and i’m always too serious . too deep , too shallow . too sensitive , too coldhearted . i’m like a collection of paradoxes .
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@sidereumnoxe.bsky.social
﹙ ⠀quote⠀acc⠀ 𝄒 ⠀damned⠀by⠀ @nochestrellada.bsky.social ⠀ ⁎ posts⠀sporadically ⠀──⠀⠀♱⠀borrowed⠀﹠ original work⠀╱⠀dm⠀for⠀sources .⠀ originally made for twitter .
⠀yes , yes , yes , i do like you . i am afraid to write the stronger word .
⠀i wake up like a stray dog belonging to no one . cold , cold , and the rain . friendships outgrown or ruined .
⠀ask me to stay , and i will . i will drop everything else if you ask me to stay .
⠀you’re my favorite friend , i’m sorry that i want you like a lover .
⠀they tell me , shaking their heads : ‘ you should be kinder . you’re somehow furious . ’ i used to be kind . it didn’t last long .
⠀why can’t you see me .ᐣ why can’t i stop needing you to see me .ᐣ
⠀i belonged to no one . not the right daughter . not the right sister . not the right friend . not the right lover .
⠀crawl inside this body— find me where i’m most ruined , love me there .
⠀i have a feeling you got everything you wanted , and you’re not wasting time stuck here like me .
⠀the songs on the radio are okay , but my taste in music is your face .
⠀you’re just thinking it’s a small thing that happened . the world ended when it happened to me .
⠀scared of my own image . scared of my own immaturity . scared of my own ceiling . scared i’ll die of uncertainty .
⠀but i always knew that in the end , no one was coming to save me .
⠀i need a father . i need a mother . i need some older , wiser being to cry to . i talk to god , but the sky is empty .