“ 𝙠𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘦𝘳 . ”

@smotheredking.bsky.social

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀and I need to save you, but who's going to save me? ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀please forgive me for whatever I do ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀♛ when I don't remember you . ♚ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀˚˖𐦍˖˚ ————————— ᴘᴇɴɴᴇᴅ ʙʏ ɴɪᴇʟ !⠀ɪᴄᴏɴ ʙʏ 3ʜᴋᴏᴡᴀʟꜱᴋɪ / ʜᴇᴀᴅᴇʀ ʙʏ ᴘᴀᴛᴏʜᴀꜱᴀᴘᴇɴᴄɪʟ

⠀ ⠀⠀﹙ and so ... he did. hands focusing for a moment - he materialized a book, though toyish in appearance. ⠀⠀"the marksman". a favorite of his. ⠀⠀perfect while relaxing in his improvised cloak. ﹚ ⠀ ⠀⠀.. thanks, jax. oh- please feel free to have those snacks, alright?

spoilers JAX.@funnytype.bsky.social · 3mo ago

... [ He just.. couldn't do it. Not after abstracting like that. Jax gave a loud, defeated sigh, plopping back down into some pillows. ] ...do whatever you want then. i dont care anymore.

⠀ ⠀⠀i know... you feel that way. ⠀ ⠀⠀but we all hate ourselves for reasons only we know. you - don't need to be anyone right now, just... be. okay-? ⠀ ⠀⠀﹙ kinger tipped his head jax's way, eyes closed with that pleasant and sincere hopefulness only he held sometimes. ﹚ ⠀⠀you have time.

spoilers JAX.@funnytype.bsky.social · 3mo ago

..nNo I'm NOT. [ That voice crack wasn't ideal, that was certain. His arms stuck stiffly by his sides, balled into fists. ] Just leave me alone.

⠀ ⠀⠀﹙ unsure eyes rose jax's way. ⠀⠀despite all the new positive memories taking his mind, overwriting old, the ringing exhaustion he felt after.. everything stuck. ⠀⠀kinger adjusted his blanket as a fidget. ﹚ ⠀⠀you're worth caring about. what happened still happened, even if you're here now.

spoilers JAX.@funnytype.bsky.social · 3mo ago

WORRIED about me?? Aparently I can't abstract so why even worry!? HA!! I don't need a minute. I need to know if its really them. Can't you just... pop in one?!

⠀ ⠀⠀it's not. ⠀ ⠀⠀there wouldn't be a point. you exist and are cared for, in either form, and he knows the consequences. ⠀ ⠀⠀﹙ fingertips reached to scratch at the side of his head's wooden surface. ﹚ ⠀ ⠀⠀if someone could get me a computer again, i could check. but i know you're real.

spoilers JAX.@funnytype.bsky.social · 3mo ago

... You know I could be an NPC. Its [ Looking around. There's no abstraction in sight ] ...Its possible. It's more likely.

⠀ ⠀⠀﹙ the older chess piece stayed quiet for a moment, collecting his words. but he sat up, stretched his back, breathed out in the process. ﹚ ⠀ ⠀⠀for the same reason any of us are, right now. ⠀⠀we're cared about. and you care about her. ⠀⠀there's a lot... we don't know. but that i 𝘥𝘰 know.

spoilers JAX.@funnytype.bsky.social · 3mo ago

How do you explain ANY of this??? Why am I HERE right now??? HOW??? [ Well if I came back to life I'd be freaked out too. ]

⠀ ⠀⠀⠀ribbit-? i- ⠀ ⠀⠀⠀﹙ kinger rubbed his forehead. ⠀⠀⠀he'd been focusing on the others so often - ⠀⠀⠀or... he thought he had. if only his memories weren't so vague lately. frustratingly so. ﹚ ⠀ ⠀⠀⠀from what i could tell, they are. i wish i could explain to the others what's going on.

spoilers JAX.@funnytype.bsky.social · 3mo ago

Not her. Ribbit. Is Ribbit still here? [ She was real. She was real. Or maybe she wasn't? Was he an NPC? Did he even care? ] Where is she? I- I need to see her I-. I need to see Ribbit

⠀ ⠀⠀⋯ queenie? ⠀⠀﹙ either eye never left the fort wall. the pillow off to the side with tear marks; her old one, which he sobbed into to try and remember some of that memory. ⠀ ⠀⠀kinger breathed out. he tightened the blanket over his own shoulders. ﹚ ⠀ ⠀⠀'mm. she.. is, yes. on and off. ▾

spoilers JAX.@funnytype.bsky.social · 3mo ago

[ Jax was mad, more than anything. Mad that it all happened, mad that his attempts to push everyone away failed. Mad that he had done it to start with. ] ...is she still around? [ Ribbit.. maybe she wasnt an npc like he thought, if he could bounce back like this. ] ➼

⠀ ⠀⠀﹙ he doesn't push it- doesn't make a point of anything right now. ⠀⠀this is fine. it's normal. hadn't used to be, not for a long time, but everyone has their moments. ⠀ ⠀⠀kinger didn't expect answers and made sure not to move more than that trail mix alone. ﹚

spoilers JAX.@funnytype.bsky.social · 3mo ago

[ ...He just curled up a bit more. ] [ He doesn't want to be looked at, he doesn't want to be acknowledged or perceived. Stop looking. ]

⠀ ⠀⠀﹙ quietly shivering against fort's tile, he turned, yanking one of his spare blankets around himself. ⠀ ⠀⠀it's worth it. always is. ⠀⠀kinger wished he were coherent enough outside of his fort to do more than small, relatively meaningless gestures. ⠀⠀but everyone does what they can. ﹚