“ 𝙠𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘦𝘳 . ”
@smotheredking.bsky.social
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀and I need to save you, but who's going to save me? ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀please forgive me for whatever I do ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀♛ when I don't remember you . ♚ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀˚˖𐦍˖˚ ————————— ᴘᴇɴɴᴇᴅ ʙʏ ɴɪᴇʟ !⠀ɪᴄᴏɴ ʙʏ 3ʜᴋᴏᴡᴀʟꜱᴋɪ / ʜᴇᴀᴅᴇʀ ʙʏ ᴘᴀᴛᴏʜᴀꜱᴀᴘᴇɴᴄɪʟ
⠀ ⠀⠀did none of you see spamton finding strange places to sleep for the past three weeks?
⠀ ⠀⠀Oh! Sorry, I haven't... looked in a mirror in a while. I think it looks perfect.
Th... Thats you, man-!
⠀ ⠀⠀oh wow, that's really pretty... whoever you drew, you must see them very highly.
[ @smotheredking.bsky.social ]
⠀ ⠀⠀﹙ and so ... he did. hands focusing for a moment - he materialized a book, though toyish in appearance. ⠀⠀"the marksman". a favorite of his. ⠀⠀perfect while relaxing in his improvised cloak. ﹚ ⠀ ⠀⠀.. thanks, jax. oh- please feel free to have those snacks, alright?
... [ He just.. couldn't do it. Not after abstracting like that. Jax gave a loud, defeated sigh, plopping back down into some pillows. ] ...do whatever you want then. i dont care anymore.
⠀ ⠀⠀i don't have any plans to leave right now, if i'm honest. ⠀⠀you're nice company. admittedly- you've 𝘣𝘦𝘦𝘯 nice company.
... [ He didn't say anything. ] ...I wanna see Ribbit. Tell her to come by or something. Or don't.
⠀ ⠀⠀i'll make sure to open it in the fort, just in case. ⠀⠀it wouldn't be the first time jax left me a pipe bomb...
⠀ ⠀⠀someone left me an unlabeled box right outside my fort... ⠀ ⠀⠀should i - be worried?
⠀ ⠀⠀i know... you feel that way. ⠀ ⠀⠀but we all hate ourselves for reasons only we know. you - don't need to be anyone right now, just... be. okay-? ⠀ ⠀⠀﹙ kinger tipped his head jax's way, eyes closed with that pleasant and sincere hopefulness only he held sometimes. ﹚ ⠀⠀you have time.
..nNo I'm NOT. [ That voice crack wasn't ideal, that was certain. His arms stuck stiffly by his sides, balled into fists. ] Just leave me alone.
⠀ ⠀⠀﹙ unsure eyes rose jax's way. ⠀⠀despite all the new positive memories taking his mind, overwriting old, the ringing exhaustion he felt after.. everything stuck. ⠀⠀kinger adjusted his blanket as a fidget. ﹚ ⠀⠀you're worth caring about. what happened still happened, even if you're here now.
WORRIED about me?? Aparently I can't abstract so why even worry!? HA!! I don't need a minute. I need to know if its really them. Can't you just... pop in one?!
⠀ ⠀⠀i- could, sort of. if i check where the file came from, and if they share the same root wheel with us... then it would be reasonable to assume if they're a brainscan or not. ⠀ ⠀⠀but, jax, it's... ⠀⠀i'm worried about you. ⠀⠀only pomni would know where, and i think you need a minute.
... So you could check if Ribbits real . Where would I get a computer
⠀ ⠀⠀it's not. ⠀ ⠀⠀there wouldn't be a point. you exist and are cared for, in either form, and he knows the consequences. ⠀ ⠀⠀﹙ fingertips reached to scratch at the side of his head's wooden surface. ﹚ ⠀ ⠀⠀if someone could get me a computer again, i could check. but i know you're real.
... You know I could be an NPC. Its [ Looking around. There's no abstraction in sight ] ...Its possible. It's more likely.
⠀ ⠀⠀﹙ the older chess piece stayed quiet for a moment, collecting his words. but he sat up, stretched his back, breathed out in the process. ﹚ ⠀ ⠀⠀for the same reason any of us are, right now. ⠀⠀we're cared about. and you care about her. ⠀⠀there's a lot... we don't know. but that i 𝘥𝘰 know.
How do you explain ANY of this??? Why am I HERE right now??? HOW??? [ Well if I came back to life I'd be freaked out too. ]
⠀ ⠀⠀⠀ribbit-? i- ⠀ ⠀⠀⠀﹙ kinger rubbed his forehead. ⠀⠀⠀he'd been focusing on the others so often - ⠀⠀⠀or... he thought he had. if only his memories weren't so vague lately. frustratingly so. ﹚ ⠀ ⠀⠀⠀from what i could tell, they are. i wish i could explain to the others what's going on.
Not her. Ribbit. Is Ribbit still here? [ She was real. She was real. Or maybe she wasn't? Was he an NPC? Did he even care? ] Where is she? I- I need to see her I-. I need to see Ribbit
⠀ ⠀⠀⋯ queenie? ⠀⠀﹙ either eye never left the fort wall. the pillow off to the side with tear marks; her old one, which he sobbed into to try and remember some of that memory. ⠀ ⠀⠀kinger breathed out. he tightened the blanket over his own shoulders. ﹚ ⠀ ⠀⠀'mm. she.. is, yes. on and off. ▾
[ Jax was mad, more than anything. Mad that it all happened, mad that his attempts to push everyone away failed. Mad that he had done it to start with. ] ...is she still around? [ Ribbit.. maybe she wasnt an npc like he thought, if he could bounce back like this. ] ➼
⠀ ⠀⠀there are-? ⠀⠀oh wow, i just thought it was that caine was making some sort of unsettling wordplay.
⠀ this might be the best one yet. bunnies everywhere. ⠀
⠀ ⠀⠀well duh, everyone can make things. ⠀ ⠀⠀i just need a piece of paper, some markers...-
ᅠ ... I FORGOT YOU COULD MAKE STUFF. ᅠ
⠀ ⠀⠀i made it myself! ⠀⠀do you like it?
ᅠ YOU HAD THAT ON HAND ??? ᅠ
⠀ ⠀⠀hey, jax! boy- these adventures, huh?
⠀ hi, kingsey! ⠀
⠀ ⠀⠀hi, jax! ⠀⠀⠀⠀hi, jax! ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀hi, jax! ⠀⠀﹙ he's waving at each of them as they go by. ﹚
⠀ ⠀⠀﹙ he doesn't push it- doesn't make a point of anything right now. ⠀⠀this is fine. it's normal. hadn't used to be, not for a long time, but everyone has their moments. ⠀ ⠀⠀kinger didn't expect answers and made sure not to move more than that trail mix alone. ﹚
[ ...He just curled up a bit more. ] [ He doesn't want to be looked at, he doesn't want to be acknowledged or perceived. Stop looking. ]
⠀ ⠀⠀﹙ looking left, looking right. ⠀⠀⠀he's somewhat worried that if he sits up too fast, jax might get startled and flee like the rabbit they are. ⠀⠀⠀kinger let his glove slide along the floor to push a bag of trail mix their way he'd kept for a bad day. ﹚
[ The pillow forts his home now he's not leaving. ]
niel. I'm really stressed and tired from irl family struggles lately. Will be resting tomorrow and hopefully getting to longer replies once I'm well! So sorry it's been weird lately from me ;u;
⠀ ⠀⠀﹙ quietly shivering against fort's tile, he turned, yanking one of his spare blankets around himself. ⠀ ⠀⠀it's worth it. always is. ⠀⠀kinger wished he were coherent enough outside of his fort to do more than small, relatively meaningless gestures. ⠀⠀but everyone does what they can. ﹚