playing w my toys

@sourcandiz.bsky.social

🔞 my secret art stash (mostly ffxiv + ocs) he/him (he/it if ur cool (trans)) i have a kofi now: https://ko-fi.com/sourcandiz

had a dream ysayle was real and lived down the street from me as a kid as like a cool adult with a safe home for all the neighborhood kids and i didnt actually get to see her but i brought her a little whittled wood bunny and left it on her porch. ough

the elf illness is so dire i want to make an ita bag. ive genuinely not been hit with a character obsession like this since uh. oh my god since that fucking hedgehog in high school. im not saying which one it would reveal too much about my mental state

breaking my own heart creating an au where catmilf survives the calamity but still gets separated from her family and doesnt know her daughter survived. and theyll never reunite bc even if they ran into each other reanna doesnt remember her and liah wouldnt recognize her *BLOWS UP*

elfcat loredrop of the day: aymerics cat does NOT fuck with reanna, not bc of the miqo thing but bc animals in general tend to be vaguely off-put by her. she tries to play it cool but its actually so devastating

forever mad that i cant rlly play rdm properly because my horrible lag situation fucks with dualcast so badly. its so fun but its barely playable the second 2 or more entities are onscreen simultaneously

sometimes i get down on myself bc im like ohhh im not very good at this game im probably the worst to ever do it and then i do roulettes and learn that my standard for the bare minimum for myself is apparently 10 times higher than whatever these ppl are operating on

i hate lvling roulette bc why is this tank turning off their stance between every pack. WHY AM I GETTING AGGRO IM HEALING. I HAVENT EVEN USED ANY ATTACKS. STOP TURNING YOUR STANCE OFF I JUST WANT TO LEVEL MY STUPID ASTRO

on the topic of women making bad decisions: shb-era reanna is fun to play with bc shes kind of the worst version of herself BUT she also has the self awareness to know shes being the worst version of herself and feel bad about it which is new

back on my bullshit yeah im imagining a pervert world wedding scenario where they get married and then immediately have an orgy with the wedding party. i just think that elf should get passed around and used in a way that shows off how obedient and well trained she is. <3

i miss women who suck and are awful and constantly suffering due to the consequences of their own actions. which is to say i miss curse of strahd i miss my girl. yvonne baby come back i miss your bad decisions i miss you crying facedown in the mud