Some personal endeavours make me feel like a mechanical calculator trying to divide by zero. Losing energy repeatedly grinding at an unending iterative task. I must fight the urge to try and justify this time use. Some things don't need defined answers. Live. This is a photo of the Fraser River.

Life goes fast, so don't wait. Do things you love, with people you care about, and make the most of every second. Make your world better for yourself and others. How you spend your time defines your life, so be active in defining your life and feel better for it. Have this broken toy ride-on car.

Having family members perpetuating the same types of social/political harm that were definitional to our family's history as immigrants is frustrating in many ways.

It's funny talking to both tabletop game devs & video game devs because apparently they have two entirely distinct understandings of how games are allowed to work despite being related spaces. Devs I've met tell war stories of how different implementation vocabs lead to communication issues. Wild.

Drives me crazy that when older people talk about the "good old days" it usually refers to times where there were no upheld social standards and they didn't think about other people when interacting with them.

When I talk to [traumatized] elders and [depressed] youths, they feel too similar. Suffering, bullying, ignorance, get normalized to them and destroy healthy relationships. Yet they often can't help each other because their worlds are different. Time creates a cultural language barrier. It's buns.

Asked if they were a scammer/bot and the account instantly nuked itself. Personally haven't seen that one before. Hopefully that means they won't be using that account to phish more people. Stay safe online lol.

It's hard to work together when using different base definitions for everything. Trying to reason terms of engagement takes up most of any conversation. Dealing with people who struggle to accept redefinition of ideas always feels like insanity. It's taught me how deeply important communication is.

For my birthday I want you to do something good for someone else. Don't care who or how big that something is. 2 words, 5 seconds, go do it. Here's to another year of life.

The road to [severe interpersonal conflict] is paved with [failed communication].

I'm constantly reminded that age doesn't necessitate experience, and experience doesn't inherently mean learning happened. I just watched an old person I care for do something very clearly dumb and face the (mild) consequences. I respect the elderly, but many still have lots to learn and discover!

Going to talks and conventions (Game dev, Art, TTRPG) and meeting lots of people has been awesome. Everyone just wants to engage, create, do. There's a lot of inherent anxiety to that, but the common ground helps people share their experiences and enjoy the process. Start stuff, community follows.

It's hard to sleep while the concentrated wills of the power hungry burn down the lives of the people you love. But we must. (I say, sleep deprived.) Have to trust. Gotta rest. We'll each do our part to build a better future. It's a marathon, and everyone needs the energy to keep moving forwards..

No thoughts, only feesh.

Building a healthy bond with your sibling is easy and fun. Talk honestly and be nice to them, and they'll be nice back. Be generous, give them food, and they'll randomly drop you a piece of tiramisu at 1am. Piece of cake (literal).

Every person I've ever met who's an ass or bigot: 1. Doesn't know any better 2. Is scared of the consequences of being wrong Holding others accountable is a hopeful act. Hoping they override fear, accept consequences, become better. It's our responsibility to each other. Have this pic of Vancouver.

As my friend groups age, most recent discussions seem focused on what being friends means. How we act in reference to each other, and why. I see a pattern of relationships lasting through honest discussion, with active accountability from all parties. Maturity displayed as care, effort, acceptance.

Community cures fear and isolation. The lonely become selfish and vulnerable because they're all they have. When you talk to people around you, learn more about them, and create lasting relationships, you never feel alone. Make friends. Look out for each other. Prevent kings before they happen.

I lied reflexively as a child, feeling unsafe with myself and the world. Lies mold themselves to expectations, spreading like a virus and getting you and everyone else sick. Be honest with yourself, care about others health, and make safe spaces for discourse. It empowers everyone to do their best.

Pride is knowing you do your best for those you care about. That you're yourself in a way that your future would approve of. I hope you each can feel proud. If not now, then later. 🏳️‍🌈

But have you tried Rubber Duck Debugging your moral code?

Note to self: Stop talking to the narcissist like they care about anybody but their own interest. It doesn't matter how well they mask it, they're always going to misconstrue every point towards their self obsession. All regardless of conscious intent, and you shouldn't fault having empathy to them.

Forcing myself to write things down over the past couple years made me engage in more active thinking. Iterating on concepts tangibly has helped me organize, plan, and memorize better. Ideas can be anything in your head, but if you can't describe them to others through any medium, they aren't real.

May unfortunate circumstances never kill your desire to do, create, and experience cool things.

In my experience people harm themselves/others because they're scared of changing themselves. Do the [familiar, normalized thing] rather than face new viewpoints. Latch onto the "easy" solutions because adapting is perceived as hard. Kill bigotry/patriarchy by teaching people that change is normal.

Up late thinking about how undersupported youths develop into isolated & fearful adults. Their experience is one of insecurity, which is then imparted onto everything. Loss aversion mindsets, inflexible world definitions, attachment to propaganda. I know too many. Wish they had known love as kids.

Being outside clears my brain.

Consent is possibly the most important part of relationships. Clearly communicated social boundaries prevent unfortunate assumptions and help steer towards positive engagement. Play games under the same set of rules, and have more fun for it. When things aren't fun, discuss rule changes together.

There's lots going on and lots to do. It's easy to get overwhelmed so try to break down problems into smaller actions. Plan simple, doable tasks. Find out what you can work on, and complete those tasks one by one. Keep steady pace. That's all we can ever do, so map it out and keep moving forward.

Fear is False Evidence Appearing Real People are hostile to what they fear. Looking at and listening to others experiences replaces fear with familiarity and understanding. Mutual understanding brings everyone safety. Love and safety to all my trans/marginalized friends and peers. May you be seen.