Spooky Calculator

@spookycalculator.bsky.social

They/She. Pan-Africanist. Vegan of color. Aspring clinical psych focused of Afro-Americans. Fellow AuDHDer, dabbler of astrology, singer/music head. Chronically reflecting on socio-psychology and its effects on Black health, particularly on our 🧠.

Let me go ahead and put this on either account. If you have an argument for not dating bisexual people because of a “ preference” or you don’t like that “lifestyle” I want you to keep in mind what the fuck you sound like…

So, I really don’t have much energy on the weekends and I need to learn to sit with it. I really don’t allow myself to rest for just like one day and I think that’s one of the reasons why I’m having such a hard time… let me just let my body guide me. I know I’ll feel better afterwards.

I really suck at making self-care plans on the weekends 😫!! Partially because it’s ADHD is still equating self-care with Work and not just self maintenance/self love. I may need to journal some more. The fact that neurodivergence can affect how quickly you internalize something says quite a bit. 

So, I did my deep dive into myself after I did my little yoga session, and I realized I am too rigid/concrete. I’m already well aware of my internalized, perfectionism and anxiety and I address it pretty often. Now I know how deep it really is and my self-care regimen. A thread 🪡

College isn’t a scam. The scam is what they make us pay for an education. Medicine isn’t a scam. The scam is that they exploit your desire to live & charge an arm and a leg for meds. The resource isn’t the scam. The fact that the put the resource behind a paywall is.

So, this has got me thinking (this meaning seeing several people talk about “they’re worth.“ I’m realizing how capitalism puts a monetary value on that work and how that distorts the definition of what worth is on a Socio cultural scale. A thread 🪡

You sure it was Fauci’s leadership & not your boss telling his base not to listen to Fauci which led to literally hundreds of thousands of them dropping dead? Does this administration think that we just forgot being stuck in the house for over a year?…FIVE YEARS AGO?

Aaron Rupar@atrupar.com · last wk.

RFK Jr: "Because of Dr Fauci's leadership and other reasons, we had the highest mortality rate from covid of any country in the world" #OtherReasons 🙃

I hate that I have to say this as a person who is more of a scientist than someone who practices spirituality, but let me dip into it I guess. Venerating our ancestors and our elders does not mean we repeat the harmful thing they’ve done. There’s not much else to say after that.

So, being a paratherapist, and also volunteering for crisis, you really began to understand the beauty in someone reaching out when they’re spiraling. I would much rather you spiral in front of me than you spiral alone. Let’s get that mental flexibility back on track.

So, I need to do more research into epigenetics and black psychology, but I am realizing a lot of the issues that African-Americans face is because we are told to hold onto our family’s trauma and not analyze and correct it. I think we need to talk about elder and ancestral veneration. Really bad.

OK, so I knew that I internalized a lot of the behavior that my grandmother and mother did because they were single mothers which was multitasking, not taking effective breaks, etc. I just didn’t know how bad. It is a deeply subconscious action that affects so much of my life 😮‍💨