Down 3lbs already!!!

Bitchhhhh I did it! My decision to start this calorie deficit journey happened about 15 minutes after I doordashed McDonald’s breakfast. It was a now or never type of moment. I ended up eating half of it lmao. Still stayed under☺️ Can’t wait to get back to work bc those steps will be uppppp🔥🔥🔥

30 minute yoga sess done. I wanted to quick halfway through. My body feels like jello. I’m proud of myself. But it’s shameful I’m this outta shape.

I’m very proud of my partner but why tf does he hate himself so deeply that he’s trying to quit a very intense nicotine addiction while starting a business? Truly some masochist shit my guy. That’s MY role🤣

If I could snap my fingers and weigh 145lbs again I would cry. I truly need to start working on my physical health now that I’m pretty stable (for me) mentally. I’ve let myself go for so long idek where to begin.

I stg my dad just sits there and waits for me to post on fb so he can leave some long unhinged comment. I finally replied because he pissed me off so bad. I should’ve continued to ignore him. Not letting him disturb my peace though. He wonders why I never go out of my way to call him anymore..

I finally figured out what went wrong last school year. Receiving a promotion I had anticipated for a LONG time during a period I was deeply struggling personally wasn’t the move. I failed myself and fell short miserably. Now I know on top of everything else imposter syndrome had a death grip on me🙃

My body image issues are getting so bad I’m starting to socialize/leave my house less and less.

August starts at the end of the week?! Time flies when you're such a hot mess!!

I’m tired of feeling like I’m doing too much while simultaneously feeling like I’m not doing enough.

I try to put my negative thinking into perspective, but truly it can get frustrating doing married shit without even being engaged. Honestly, I’m gonna start pulling back soon. Not intentionally but I can feel a shift in my bones.

Life feels like it’s changing but in a good way. I’m digging it. Maybe I’m finally entering a new chapter. I’ve been feeling very stagnant.

I WANT A SALAD. I WANT A SUB. I WANT TO ENJOY FRESH PRODUCE AGAIN. When is this going to be figured out? I feel like we’ve gotten little to no guidance about this fucking parasite.

I love summer break. Already cleaned my room. Showered and hair washed. About to start painting. Can I stay home forever? Jk I love money too much but damn it feels good to not be needed every second for 7 hours a day😂

I know I’m biased but I truly have the cutest boy. Koda aka my little bear.🤎

I am so nauseous today I hate it here

The latest I’ve been up since I started summer break. I’m trying to be so quiet bc I don’t wanna disturb my partner. It’s making me anxious like I’m doing something wrong. But damn I just wanna vibe and enjoy the peace late nights bring.

Stressing myself out looking at the price for private dog trainer sessions at 1 AM. What is wrong with me? It’s gotta happen because this needs professional attention but damn that’s gonna hurt the wallet.😅

I’ve been painting for hours I’m gonna be so sore. My wrist already hurts but I don’t want to stop. 😅

Whenever I paint I put a movie on from the 2000’s. I don’t know why but it enhances the vibes✨

DoorDashing some pizza and hoping to find the energy to tackle the bathroom. I’m so tired of being the only one who actually cleans. I know I’m off for the summer so I have free time but this isn’t a new issue.

This constant sense of impending doom is very inconvenient. I’m lying in bed watching Disney Channel shows. Can’t my body sense we shouldn’t be in fight or flight. I wish I could regulate my nervous system overnight.

My hip is bothering me and none of the stretches I’m doing are working. I need someone to pull in my legs while I hold onto something fr😩

Summer lowkey sucks when you don’t have a pool.

i am begging venues & bands to rediscover clipart

Ordered better brushes for my paint by numbers. I’m really enjoying this activity. I wish I had a more comfortable setup but that will be expensive to fix.

Oh I’m over these bangs. I’m going back to longer curtain bangs. I say that until I have a good hair day and remember why I love them 🤣

I still need to wash my hair and I can’t wait until tomorrow because I put oil in it😭

Almost done with Monday’s to do list. Low key bored out of my mind, but trying to stay busy without overwhelming myself with chores.

I’m part of the problem for sure, because why did I just buy one of those fuck ass Nello drinks? Always falling victim to consumerism😭