Cissies really can't stand the concept of a confident and content trans person. You have to be the right amount of self hating to make them feel good about being an 'ally' but also have zero expectations of respect so they don't need to actually treat you right.

sad bitch season

Half woman half creature from the depths of the forest

Bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla ashes shut the fuck up do something about it if you're so upset

Local cog in the machine dislikes being a cog, does nothing about it, the machine does not notice or care

A couple of my scars are hypersensitive rn and idk why. Feels like an electric current running through my arm

Sunakook Cat Screaming

ALT: Sunakook Cat Screaming

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Chef ashes says to eat your vegetables nutrients are important

Existential dread

Jumpscared by a ghost from my last manic episode 😭 mf is a cashier now and was the cashier at the grocery store so much for hoping they didn't remember me (I didn't realize until they were already scanning my stuff)

I don't want to have a gender I want to be an amorphous blob

Have to go back out and buy different work out pants bc the ones I got are too tight around my groin and I'm so so so dysphoric over it. Bc there's two options 1. Lmao your big disgusting man body is two disgusting for these so you need to go buy baggy bullshit that makes you look even more like a

This song hit me like a gunshot two days ago and I can't stop listening to it open.spotify.com/track/2AEMJu...

Romy What's on Your Mind

DeathbyRomy · Monsters · Song · 2018

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HR guy half yelling my deadname and walking up to me ✨ yay I love being trans it's not at all like I was purposely avoiding any and all trace of it at this workplace ✨

For a 'recovered' girlie I sure can't eat in front of people I do not feel 100% comfortable with

My 'I want to do an aerial routine to this song' playlist is like 50% Deathbyromy gods I love her so much

I bring a sort of river spirit vibe to the workplace that they don't quite appreciate

There are so many people who have lost their connection to the world. So focused on imaginary things. The grass you can feel under your feet is what is real. We build so many walls to disconnect ourselves from the real, natural world. We want so badly to just live in manufactured delusion.

I wish I didn't exclusively have terrifying or distressing dreams

I signed up for my studio's aerial showcase in January (my first time performing!!!!) and that means I need to make a flow and my nerd ass went 'you know what I need? An excel spreadsheet of every move I know, transitions, starting positions, exit positions, etc' I am such a weirdo xD

Got new leggings and omg they make me look like I actually have a butt

It's mostly good this morning. I was a good girl and canceled my class tomorrow to make sure I recover fully before going back and I'm so unhappy about it everyone say good job ashes for not being stubborn

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Istg if I actually fucked up my shoulder I'm going to be so so so so angry

Istg if I actually fucked up my shoulder I'm going to be so so so so angry

Politicians will really defund everything except the police. Police funding is literally being identified as the cause of my city's budget deficit by POLITICIANS and they're going to raise taxes and cut city jobs instead of just... figuring out the police.

President of the sweaty bitch club

Feel like a lump of damp moss and not in a good way

This job is so bleak. This is what I'm supposed to do? This type of shit? Where's the wonder? Where's the whimsy? Where's the learning? Where's ANYTHING?

Was reading through my dream lot and came across an old dream I had where I was part of an exploration ship exploring new worlds and I was specifically involved in studying ecology and man. The existential dread I have rn sitting at my office job pretending to be busy.

Everybody supports women until a woman's doing better than you Everybody wants you to love yourself until you actually do

Not going to cry bc I failed miserably at a presentation nope not me I don't want to cry at this job.

Curious Cat's Expression

Alt: Sad cat

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