Walkin on the treadmill its too cold at night rn and i see my sterum even with a push up bra on we are so back

Finally getting bloodwork done for the first time in years😐 Mainly doing it to check if im going through menopause/hormone levels but im also wondering if any of my ed bs will show

Hope my cousins happy being above the skys and in the heavens with his sister. I wish I couldve hugged him one more time.

Agreed 👇

Genuinely scared everyone at work hates me actually when i have only love for them :(((

My grandmas sister is honestly so cool I lowkey wish she was my grandma instead

nsfw moment heads up😭😭😭😭😭😭 - - - - - ana brain moment of joy when im gettin my thighs fucked and i get told "get your thighs closer" but they are as close as they can physically get lolololololololololol thigh gap babeeeeeyyyyyyyyy

At the obgyn my weight is 127 god bless

For the first time i admitted out loud i have dealt with an eating disorder via a joke at work... chat im cooked

Dont wanna dox my job but im trying to get a malicious targeted review down and im hoping its gone in a few days cause its CREEPY and we've had a real sus ass person working here whos getting kicked out at the end of the week

My anxiety has been fucking insane the past few days i hate it

God my fucking body dysmorphia is hitting me like a truck again and knowing all my cutest clothes i bought when i was at my heaviest and now im left with mostly huge clothes makes me so sick

Think ive tied my value to my work a bit too much but also its been my happy place. Which feels sad to even say. But where else can I have people i see daily that (i hope) give a shit about me and let me kind of run loose? I dont have anything else where i live......

Yknow im glad i locked in as hard as i did in 2024 and dropped 1/3 of my body weight but i want more off so bad and ive been mostly in a plateau for awhile now. Blessing and a curse

Always in need of professional help

TW body check . . . . Am feeling a type of way. I love it but also hate it. Whoops. Cant help but take photos (i am in constant physical pain too)

Keep feelin like a fatass yet i can see my entire ribcage as of late🫩 can my brain pick a struggle i stg

The urge to do drugs grows constantly

I want to be strong and toned but im also mortified how beefy my arms look. I love it but also deeply hate it

Trying to clean out my phone and organize picture albums and im so horrified everytime i see a photo or video of me pre 2025 when i was still almost 200lbs. Horrifying

Ik this might be ironic coming from me but man. I really hope ari has proper support behind the scenes and can recover in some way.

Being a fucking manager is tiring sometimes when you have the most infuriating part timers in the world Cant wait to hire some new people😭😭😭 jesus fucking christ

Listening to petal and crying

Genuinely feel like ive lost myself and its scary

Have to awkwardly take off my pto at work tomorrow cause theres a bunch of people angry that my partner wanted to take me to a trip that the person hosting said was generally ok... we agreed if 1 person wasnt ok id pull out and turns out its fucking 4 of them. Ive been crying on and off

Attempting to properly recover... my ed has taken so much from me and i know myself, but i also dont. I feel so lost. The past 2 years starving i barely even remember. Before that i binged so much i blocked it out. And all this time even before my 20s ive had food issues. Im so tired.

I truly feel like I am not worthy of being loved deeply and doomed to live in solitude. It breaks my fucking heart

FINALLY had this bad boy yesterday and my god it was so good. Not very energizing for me but it was so yummy idec