this guy has no idea that this is the first time i've even stepped foot into alliance raid for 3 entire months because of how tired i got of "the crystal df experience" i want to frame this on my wall
i am holding the e33 fanfic community legally, morally, and personally responsible for destroying all of my art productivity (i'm going to force myself to get work done now though sorry for the delays everyone 🥀)
me: i have literally 0 emotional attachment left for ffxiv me: *listens to queen eternal fight track and rips my shirt off and breaks into tears*
wip of a new refsheet showing off all his different forms but *throws this into the endless wip void*
i have been itching to continue working on some of my wip albus clone cs designs but...they're all lowkey winter themed...and how am i supposed to be in the right mindset to work on them when i'm melting into goo from summer heat ☀️🪦
but yall have no idea how many physical merch projects i have in endless wip, like that is my most TOXIC artist trait 😭 i used to make so many acrylic charms and sticker sheets for myself/friends and i still have that dog in me. my old ass just don't have the energy to keep up with me spirit 💀
GRRRRRRR I NEED TO FIGURE OUT HOW TO GET SOME KIND OF PHYSICAL MERCH OF ALBUS (aka make my own) because..oh i feel so weird talking about my personal life but..i finally bit the bullet and booked a trip to japan..! i'm finally doing it!!! and i want him to experience the adventure..
#artfight attack for @sunwheats.bsky.social of their character alba raela I had a lot of fun playing with my experimental "2D character in a 3D background and rendering it" workflow
not to be a Downer but once i stop giving a shit about losing my medium house it's SO over for me (my sub) 😔 it's been like 2 months since i've done anything but log in 1 hour at most a week to do weeklies and even then i skipped last week 😔 hopefully i'll love the game again before i lose my house
when i feel like i can't draw ideas i have, i let albus take the wheel
i am in the mood to share more about myself these days and feel more comfy doing it on this site so uhm..wow look it's my workspace! surprise, i draw in bed 💤 that sure isn't bad for my back 💤 (also yes i did intentionally open this specific project to fit in with my plushie)
my first #artfight attack this season! i'm having fun experimenting with this crayon chibi style
super cringe self indulgent pic i wanted to take with my new favorite friend 🙈he fits so perfectly in my arms 🥺✨
AH i forgot to post earlier that today i visited the se cafe in LA! i was only going there for the nier stuff and i was very pleasantly surprised how prominent it was! also for context: you get random coasters for each menu item and somehow between 3 of us, we all got 1 of the one i wanted most 😂
wanted to try making one of these for albus 🪽 it was a bit difficult to gather inspo characters because i mostly made him up from my other ocs/irl self, but some of these i cannot even remotely deny 💀 (no it's not cheating to have two e33 characters both of them are way too similar for me to pick 1)
i had this spur of the moment brainworm of what kind of outfit albus would wear when his main outfit gets torn up in battle and needs to be repaired (he would insist on not wearing the nice dwarven outfits and instead opt for the shittiest rags imaginable bc why waste real clothes on a sin eater)
idk if this is Deranged but i love e33's ost so much that i just straight up do not want to listen to it when i draw (finding new music to draw to was the entire reason i played this game so 🤡) bc there is nothing i can draw that is as beautiful as this music and i feel Guilty and Stunlocked and 🤡