nika shedtwt
@surfacehell.bsky.social
18 || victim of 🔪🍽️ || follows back ✨✨
being scared of the adult psyche ward makes me risk my life i am scared of and for myself
"i'm tired of hearing it all the time" imagine living with it i can't take it anymore
that's definitely not the half bagel i ate
nika shedtwt@surfacehell.bsky.social · 7mo agoyeah idk how yall get it up
how do yall purge i litterally cant get myself to throw up my food
year ago today fell into my dresser getting into the bathroom
i hate how ugly and disgusting my skin is but i can't help but want to make it worse
never posted an update for those either
nika shedtwt@surfacehell.bsky.social · 10mo agoshrinkage is annoying as fuck
anyways here's that update i disappear because i feel fine for like a week or two after then i spiral again an AWESOME cycle right 😀
it's funny how i just disappear for weeks at a time every time im still going crazy dw
i'm so sick why does cutting instantly make me feel like everything's okay but that only lasts a week then i'm back to suffering
but god that shower made me feel sick cause of the pain
next day and after shower the infected hair follicles is not it but i was not dealing with the blood all night so it was trapped under a tight gauze wrap
i'm bleeding through everything another roll of gauze and self stick shit
like please what did i do to you to be punished like this
i'm just trying not to kms why do i have to be punished