Edward Wind

@theedwardwind.bsky.social

Just a game-playing, anime-watching, puzzle-doing, wrestling-addicted, big-footed bunny. Who is also trying to figure out how, why, and what to use this thing for. Be patient with me! <3

For the first time in a long time, I saw a lightning bug outside. It caught me by surprise, seeing that familiar lil flash of light. Don't even remember how long its been. But damn....those summer nights as a kid, seeing them all over the place. Was just....kind of magical. Damn I miss being a kid.

Open up to who I think is my only close friend that I've been feeling suicidal, and it is just brushed off. Conversation is kept moving. Even gave it time, and there's no check-ins, no messages, nothing. I really am just fucking alone lmao. I really don't have anyone I can go to. Life is just great.

Guess I will only do AC again if I know for certain that I will have people to meet up and hang out with. None of the "I want to meet you" and then never actually trying to. It's amazing being alone and easily pushed aside. Perfectly understand why people say money doesn't make you happy.

The urge to just die is growing even more. Ex-friends told me before I should just do it. Parents never tried to do anything when they found out I wanted to die when I was a kid. Maybe it is time for me to just end it all. Just me talking to the void at this point. Nothing left for me in the future

Can't find anywhere to fit in. Can't find people that want me around. Can't find people to hang with. Just constantly alone, pushed away, ghosted, forgotten. Clearly theres something wrong with me, just wish someone would actually tell me what. Its always the same result, no matter who the group is