thisguy05.bsky.social

@thisguy05.bsky.social

Spiritual seeker, meditator, aspiring yogi, father, newly-single and trying to figure out how to be happy again. Happily becoming Nobody. Trying to find my way in a world that feels lost and a life that has taken some rough turns I never saw coming.

When a life crisis stuck recently I initially fell apart. I was angry and felt like all my years of practice were for naught. Only then did it occur to me that maybe God knew I’d have this to face one day and had I not practiced all these years I wouldn’t have made it through it now.

I’ve learned, for me, that both duality and non-duality have their place. When I am strongest, duality is easier to see. When I am at my weakest and when focus and inner strength ebb seeing through the lens of duality can provide strength.

Some of you know that my last month was an extremely devastating time for me. Some of you reached out or offered encouragement. Thank you all. I’m back. I’m emerging from a big trauma. My practice saved me as did some good friends. Not over yet but now I know I’ll make it. Thanks, all.

The connection between human experience and the characteristics of the Hindu deities astounds me. Even if you don’t believe in them as actual entities you can find one or more in every experience you have. I have seen Kali, Shiva and Sri Krishna so clearly in these worst of my days. I’m blessed.

May these times of suffering ultimately bring relief from suffering. “It turns out that what brings you down becomes grist for the mill. Why would you go somewhere else to get it? You have a full pot of it right in front of you." -Ram Dass

In Hinduism, Mother Kali is seen as a fierce but loving deity. She is rarely gentle. She will burn away the places where you cling so that you may truly be free. She’s tough but only wants our best. Just like the best Mother.

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“There is no emotion that you cannot be rid of, because emotions are simply thoughts,and thoughts are just like the wind moving through the empty sky. There is nothing to them.” ~ The Heart of Compassion Dilgo Khyentse Rinpoche The river this morning with a little fog lingering.

On the other side of the path from the river green grass and gum trees and sunlight filters through a haze of fog. The lily pads float in the water of the river. Gum trees also reflected into the river.

I was just thinking how I wish I’d learned to walk more gently a long time ago. Some days, I’m a bull in an emotional china shop. “If you realize how fragile your life is and how at any moment it could be turned upside down, you will walk very gently on this planet.” -Sadhguru