how the fuck did i survive 2 summers ago with no portable ac and no fridge -- ah yeah it was the drugs.
caged animals 🏳️⚧️
@tinybirds.bsky.social
autistic. plural. therian. addict. full of birds and children. afraid of humanity. nonbinary lesbian. 33.
To "fully understand yourself" is to reduce your existence into a set of learned rules. Learned certainities. It is a lossy compression. If you do not betray that path, it will become the new paradigm.
this schoolyear i gotta pretend to be a dude again bc im working at a school where everyone knows me as one. its easier with regards to students too. but fuck im so looking forward to leaving the city and get fucking laser so i can pass as a dyke instead. at least its helped me get work & housing...
made wife watch matilda for my birthday (she had never seen it!!!!), realized she looks a bit like miss honey and now cant stop imagining her in cute blush-pink dresses and a side part. im hot 4 teacher but its ok bc im a teacher too
This is the story of the big nervous wolf and the small supportive fox 🐺💜🦊
theres still some swifts nesting/fledging in the brick walls a block from us, i can hear them sing as they settle down for the night. all is not lost.
i dont want to die. im having so many crises and meltdowns now that im back in the city this heat is burning me alive and i cant stop crying. i dont want to want to die
i dont like the word feral. feral is an escaped domestic animal that has gotten accustomed to freedom. i dont want to be feral i want to be wild. i want nothing to do with humanity and its domestication i dont want to be owned
i cant even look out the window without sweating myself to death - the glass panes are translucent and not transparent, and they have to be closed always especially with the portable ac connected to them... where is the sky. where are the trees and the clouds
Today I went to visit a friend who lives in the snowy mountains. My friend has thick legs and looks really cool. #Illustration #CommentPls #RTpls
arrived to our apartment after 24h in a car, put on a washing load, proceeded to dissociate on the couch and get scared at the unknown noises & vibrations coming from the washing machine
they found her after some days and her hands were stained, painted in white she'd been writing her name on the wall and yours along, scrubbed away because you would never return you hadn't ever been none of the promises you made to her were even real
why is there screaming and shouting and music even here in the mountains. why cant people jus t fuckigng shut the fuck up forever and stop making so much disgusting human noise forever
hiding from my parents in the bathroom again. how could i not be 8 years old forever if this is still my life at 32
this is why im so fucking scared to post any art online anymore. this is why i went traditional-only & everything stays in my sketchbooks and in my shelves and on my walls & it HURTS bc nowhere is safe anymore
Luke Ridge (Commissions open✏️)@lri.bsky.social · 7d agoSo news has appeared today of someone cracking #Cara and scraping everything. 12 Million+ pieces of art stolen for the needs of criminals. How is this legal?, what are we meant to do as artists when even platforms built to champion us and keep us safe can be robbed?. #NoAI
i think homes you can't go back to really only haunt you when you can't let yourself have a home in the present
god dammit im trying to grow my hair out i dont need any more reasons to shave it off and poke beautiful art into my scalp with needles
Phobia@phobia.bsky.social · last wk.Just got done with tattoo
wife flew back to the city today im driving back there in a couple days i dont wanna go back :( the city is hot and disgusting and ugly and noisy and there are people and bad smells and cockroaches and i hate it
the one i can clearly recall is a poisoning story - older schoolmates tricking me into eating a poisonous plant and drinking its sap by telling me it was milk. i believed them. i always believed anyone ever told me and everybody knew
Vyria Durav, Dragon Princess of the Night@vyriadurav.bsky.social · 2mo agoWhat's a drowning story? Well it's the story of one of the potentially multiple times a child or adult tries to drown you as a child! Why would they do that? It's a really easy way to murder someone and play it off as an accident and thus is used often on the freak children nobody wants around!
i would really recommend white ppl look into the "right to comfort" as a characteristic of white supremacy. from "white supremacy culture" by tema okun:
jude paw picture diary 🥪@judepaw.bsky.social · last wk.i need white neurodivergent folks (and yes i am singling out the whites because it is ALWAYS y'all) to understand that discomfort is not oppression, and using the language of social justice in service of censorship is fascist behavior. you might not think that's what you're doing, but it is!
my parents have been here for all of 3 days and theyve managed to pick a fight with my wife and another one between them. the good thing is now my wife understands better how i feel & why i act the way i act & in what way my traumas arent gnarly scars but open wounds oozing all over the place
my wife told me she would follow me to the end of the world. so i said lets do it. today we went to the end of the world and we kissed there. now i have empirical evidence
i really really reaaaallllyyyy hate brushing my teeth it makes me gag every single time. once when i was a teenager i went months without doing it & nobody noticed (if they had, lots of ppl would have definitely used it to hurt me, so im sure). but i hate fermenting sugars on my tongue even more.
got stung by nettles while weeding :( but luckily there was some ribwort plantain nearby! if u crush the leaves & apply the juice to where u got stung it goes away :)
had a lot of fun with friends!! little bird even managed to come out and talk to them for a while. the teenager too! one of said friends is a psychologist - had absolutely zero training on DID in college so he was fascinated asking a lot of questions. he got free training & we got free therapy lmao
today two friends are coming to visit & stay a couple days!!!! i have a lot of anxiety but also really hyped