Tishnerys Targaryen

@tisharaquel.blacksky.app

She/Her/Big Dawg One of those artistic dames.

My friend made some prints & photo puzzles of my brother for me. He’s always showing my family and I love during the times we honor our heartbreaks and acknowledge our grief. My big brother was beautiful with a smile that would make the sun blush. Thank you for these. I’m forever grateful for you 💛

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I know this grief is a thunderstorm right now that will one day pass- but I’m in need of just a small glimmer of sunshine cause all of these big feelings that wind up when I’m idle are absolutely heavy af. And quite frankly, I’m very much exhausted.

I don’t know if this is a neurodivergent thing but people who repeat the same point in a conversation or like repeat a request in the same interaction really piss me off 😂 I’m not talking about like twice- like… Cause my processing delayed but I’m not deaf I heard you the first and second time 😂

One of these days I’m going to listen to my intuition cause whenever I have strange encounters or interactions with folks I second guessing myself, thinking I’m probably doing too much- Only for that feeling to be completely validated after all.

Conflict is inevitable. The recovery is where the real difference is made. That’s where the emotional safety begins. TO ME. These are my therapy thoughts lol. And this is something I still work on now. I hardly move with intention to hurt anyone, but that doesn’t mean I haven’t, or won’t again.

Your intentions do not always matter when it comes to impact. Can they be shared in attempts to provide clarity? Sure. But acknowledgement of the impact of your actions on somebody is still important. Continuing to overshadow their feelings with self-defense feels like invalidation very quickly.

You can be a good person and still make mistakes in connections, and I think a lot of folks forget that. That’s why when someone says you hurt them or fell short of an expectation, instead of listening, some will defend their ‘intentions’ because you jump to think they’re saying you’re a bad person.

As a man, dying on a morality hill when a situation involves life or death is an interesting choice TO ME. Especially when you still have artists like Chris brown, Future, Drake, etc in rotation.

I reposted the Vic Mensa reel about Megan and a male acquaintance DMd me arguing she was a bad friend to Kelsey and lied about fucking Tory. His entire point was that she should be “accountable” and I have thoughts…

My friend really came over the other week and put groceries in my fridge, cleaned my kitchen and bathroom and laid in bed with me. She literally just wanted me to be still and grieve my brother and I have to keep telling her every chance I get how much that meant to me.