If I could eat anything right now, i've been dying for a nice slice of pizza from my favorite place. My second choice would be fish over rice, i'm willing to try yellow croakers again since my mom isn't here to destroy them with salt. I think about food more than normal people my size.

Here we go again, been making the slow crawl from 110 lbs down to 100. I'm not sad to lose weight so much as I am just sad there isn't much I can eat.

FB's viewer statistics are predictably flatlined because I don't promote it much, especially because it's not ongoing. But recently that's changed and I don't know what to attribute it to. It's these events that just make me wonder where it gets passed around, and what people say.

Preview of City of the Sun, chapter 26! Coming back February 1st! #CotS #nugartstuff

My Master! #Hellsing #Alucard #nugartstuff

It always feels like there is somebody there who is "open to talk anytime" until you need it honest to God. Not because they aren't there, but because you don't want to bother anyone at anytime, for anything

Man. I'm really starting to feel like i'm in a spot where I just need outside guidance and to talk to people who are not really involved in my situations. I think normally you'd turn to your family, but my family just loves to be absent.

not gonna lie, I probably am a frustrating person to deal with when there's some kind of altercation. My ability to shut a person out forever is an unmatched skill.

keep trying to think of ways to tell my new doctor I can't keep coming in for consultations back to back. I just can't afford it even if it's "low cost"

trying to draw more of these guys. guns and gear aren't a big deal when i'm staying impressionistic. #nugartstuff

came back from the doc today, now I'm waiting for labs to get to me so I can see if there's anything I could fix with my diet. really hoping to get more answers than questions at this point.

Being an adult has taught me a few things, notably that it is okay to acknowledge the natural limit of understanding, that people of every kind will lie to you, and that there is nothing wrong in having some ignorance.

kicking my own ass over how much of a pain his headshape is #nugartstuff

had an idea thrown at me about maybe one of these little guys sawing off his own beak to make shooting easier- not something they'd normally do for obvious reasons, for less obvious reasons they consider disturbing their natural glory to be heretical. This little guy is coo coo for cocoa puffs

Drew this king (Earl) he is so large he uses mortars and artillery guns to explode things (for fun sometimes) #nugartstuff

There is a kind of ugliness to these grey faber castell markers that I both love and hate at the same time. here are some imp men #nugartstuff

But wait, there's more! These little dudes are servants of Halphas, all they do is fight, pewpew and cannibalism #nugartstuff

QRT with your black and white art lov me pens 'ate colorin' simple as

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QRT w/ your black & white art (─‿‿─)

self depictaments #nugartstuff

There are doors you can't come back from #CotS

#CotS A younger Thomas, scarless, able to see out of both eyes and at the end of the beginning of his boxing career. Mired in allegations of cheating, being confronted about potential "psychic powers" was like calling him an out and out fraud.

I have been enjoying my fake digital gouache (but I would like to try real gouache too!) #nugartstuff

I'm not really interested in jjba, but I respect Araki the most of all popular mangaka.

Hirohiko Araki on the evil of AI art in today's "world of con artists". He worries about the impact AI-generated fakes will have on manga. He recently saw an AI image and was shocked at its similarity to his art style. - Hirohiko Araki's New Manga Techniques (November 15, 2024)

Whether good or bad, no one knows me. When people see me, they can't guess who I am like i'm a weird shadow of what a person is. When I talk, they don't expect the sound of my voice. It's kind of like I have so little presence I can barely make it beyond existing in a space.

I don't align with anyone, so i'm scared of being myself in a way, I can't trust anyone and it's hard to make friends because i've been hurt a lot. When people turn flippant because they are upset or angry or want to make you into a straw person, that hurts more than anything.

The heart is so delicate. You have to be careful about what you let in, everything wants your soul, but that doesn't mean they want you.

office sloppy

Anytime I get the urge to just go goblin mode again or troll or be a fucking idiot for laughs I mentally punt myself in the snatch. I have some awful tendencies but I have to remind myself it's better to be good to people than let loose in my behavior for a momentary gaffe.

I'm publicly apolitical. This may frustrate some, but that can't be helped. To my and other's benefit I cherish a level of tolerance with many others who I may not necessarily align with, but who I appreciate regardless. Maybe it's a wish that the respect was returned, futile as it is.