Am dyin

@trying0001.bsky.social

I WILL BE NORMAL I SWEAR

Also for my VGen backlog... I'm so sorry it's taking super long to send over 😭😭😭 I've been drawing back to back at my new job so I keep having scheduling problems, my grandma passed away last week too so I'm super behind my work deadlines

Posting on social media is making me a aughhh h h hh lately I have a discord server where I just dump stuff on there Comment if you want in and ogle at my bare bones field and I'll send you the invite link via chat/DM

Bild

honestly ive been in so much physical pain these past few months i think it exceeded my mental disorder im actually low cortisol enough to not spiral out of control wow

I'm so lonely but also actively denying myself companionship because I know how suffocating it is to be with someone broken like me huhuhu my favorite anime uncles are being projected onto me

Physically tweaking because I have this need to see RB speaks in Louisiana Cajun French but idk French at all so I can't even write comic pages about about IT LMAO

The funniest thing happened last Sunday like idk why my mind was disassociating really hard (probably cause of my meds) but I opened the fridge and mindlessly chug half a bottle of cough medicine, luckily I realized what I had done and immediately purge my entire stomach content 🫪

Never opening collage style commissions again lmao the way I just realized I've been drawing 8-10 drawings per piece for 60 bucks...no wonder I was so stressed out...

Finally changed my job (last week actually lol)!!!! The workload eased up significantly 😭😭😭 Can't believe I've put up with such an impossible schedule for YEARS... I finally have time to fully tackle just my back logs today.

Honestly even now I still kind of think that my artstyle is just, mediocre... Maybe... I don't really have as much confidence as I used to, nowadays I just doodle mindlessly...

I headcanon that Caldwell was the main blood supplier for Dr. T's early stages of necroraise procedures because that's the only plausible explanation that I could think of on why Grave can only use Mika's blood (which establishes Mika as Caldwell's true biological daughte)

Also I dug through my old inventory stash (because I was hospitalized/warded last year so it was just chucked to the corner) Apparently I have still have some amount of tristamp Vash, Kni and Ww plushies in stock + other acrylic merchandise... I should open another clear out sale soon...