Been tinkering with Zac's design lately. A number of goals in mind, on the "design" side been trying to give him more of a visual personality, clearer shape language, more distinct of a silhouette. A number of aspects of his character that I'm also trying to more clearly represent visually. 😩💦

As much as I understand the frustration with being ghosted by an artist, I get kinda touchy about how some people talk about artists in general because tbh I see a lot of entitlement with respect to time, professionalism, and pricing, which speaks to a general ignorance w/ respect to freelancing.

The tradition of being alone in an instance and soloing CEs as BLM continues 😎

So many youtubers I used to watch whomst I've stopped watching since this AI fad started, like idk how the fuck you gonna say you care about accurate information while fuckin brain off centrist ass "it's a useful tool" obviously not fuckin talking to anyone who actually knows fucking anything.

You can tell that I'm ancient cosmic demon, because of the way that I am.

Western society trying to figure out why our empires are declining, why we've fallen off with innovation and societal advancement, surely it couldn't be the consequences of cultivating a culture that revolves around clout chasing, hustling, and wealth, all at the expense of curiosity and passion.

Sometimes I think about how one of my earliest memories of family is at age 4ish getting SCREAMED at for allegedly losing a toy that had belonged to my father in childhood, guilt-tripped about it for YEARS, only for them to years after the fact discover oops it had been in a drawer the whole time.

I actually hate fuckin spicy takes even though ugh i have them it's a vicious cycle man i'm like why am i mad about milkshake flavor opinions what the fuck has the internet done to my fucking brain like bro if i saw someone being mad about that shit i'd think it was stupid why am i doing it

They say that artists are at the end of day just people and you should treat them like people, but for me that is not the case. I wish to be treated like a horny demon who lives deep in the dark part of the forest to whom you confess your sins and petition me for sweet, sinful succor. And show cock

Using 3.1 as a placeholder for pi in the company spreadsheet because I'm a demon

It's always interesting talking to people who like fuckin HATED Riku in KH1 because I was never one of them. xD Like yeah obviously he was a dickhead but idk even as a kid experiencing it for the first time back then I felt more sad about him being obviously manipulated than pissed at him.

Me: "[Artist X] is a fucking tool, he acts nice if you're popular and he thinks he can get something out of you, but he's a fucking snake and is super fucking nasty behind closed doors." Person I know with a large following: "Idk he's always seemed nice to me." Me: "BROTHER ARE YOUR EARS OKAY."

I feel like capitalism in general is actually just a scam. Like at the end of the day the country technically owns everything within its borders anyway, it's just with capitalism y'know you get to pay a middleman for fucking everything who can just charge you functionally whatever the fuck he wants.

Kept going back and forth about whether I should delay sex scenes with Kai for sake of conventional tension building, or trust my instincts, my instinct being that sexuality and sex work and navigating the challenges those impose on romantic connection are core to his theming as a love interest. 🤔

I wish indefinite innovative suffering upon people who treat autism like some kind of "disease" that needs to be prevented or avoided or "cured." Everyone else doesn't seem nearly disgusted enough, tbh. Like it's not just scientifically ignorant, it's fucking eugenics ass Nazi language. Fuck.

I've seen discourse about dropping Blender because one of their larger donors is big AI or something, and it's frustrating because like I get it, it sucks, everything sucks right now, it's also important to fucking check your ego, understand these are rock and hard place times for indie creators.

If we're being intellectually honest with respect to Final Fantasy games, a better analogy is to compare the games to different types of fruit. You may not like durian, but you're a fool if you're trying to sell a tangerine to someone who wants durian just because YOU think it is all around better.

Chicken noodle soup opinions: - Thigh = ✔️ Breast = ❌ - Whole grain noods - Turmeric is as much your friend as garlic (which also refers to the upper threshold) - TEENY bit of lemon zest (or teenier bit of lemon juice) is an aromatic gamechanger

A lot of people use OC and fursona interchangeably, and I mean I do too sometimes for simplicity sake, even though tbh I don't actually think they're the same thing at all. 😩

A lot of adults find children who question things annoying As a former child who questioned EVERYTHING, I find it refreshing, why yes 5 year old, I will happily indulge your question and see if I can't help teach you the art of research, sorry in advance for how disappointing school is going to be.

FFVII Remake was very educational for me, has me rethinking my VN, specifically with respect to side characters / quests. More work for me, but also I feel like it'll be worth it and maybe paradoxically alleviate some pressure by making pacing control a lot easier. 😩💦

I always get kind of a weird vibe from people who clearly want horny furry money but simultaneously go outta their way to avoid ever doing or even associating with actual porn art. It feels like the guy who wants to come to union meetings for the pizza, but never actually wants to join the union.

Couple more concepts. Goat demons are a classic must Rightmost one the idea behind his kind is like a demonic overseer, traditionally the "upper class" of a traditional demon hierarchy. Not quite a devil, but important enough to wield considerable authority... at least outside of Fiendhaven.

Doing some (more) design work for Fiendhaven needed to figure out some more "species," imp design here Wanted 'em to be more than just "small demon," the goal being to capture the essence of "mischief" - in the context of Fiendhaven, *horny* mischief in particular. 💦

Broke -> Your hand should a finger attempt to penetrate me. Woke -> Massaging my asshole while you suck my dick.

"Can I follow your twitter?" No. I nuked my gallery, I will never be posting again, I'm not logged in, I'm not planning to ever be logged in again, my profile even says I'm not active there anymore.

Endless wrestling match with the ole crippling feelings of inadequacy.

"My anaconda don't want none unless you got buns, hun." ---Xigbar

I wasn't loving the coloring from the other version so I redid them and added a lil Orrax cameo 😩💦

thinking about taking on some comms always wary of my ability to actually do art commercially but budget w/ my dayjob income has been just fucking mercilessly tight for so long that it's hard to make any serious progress w/ savings which has stalled my quality of life improvements quite a bit. x_x