I hate myself so much for missing you right now. For when we were together I was so high on anxiety and stuck inside my head I couldn't be with you for real

I'm so anxious almost started to pray. God started to be possible

This one goes out to all the dates and all the meetings and all reunions and all the encounters I didn't enjoy, cause I was stuck inside my head too much to feel anything but FEAR

So stuck inside my own head I couldn't see How lovely you'Ve been to me On this infinite wait for an ideal couple of hours in someone's arms I forgot where I was

The Houses of Parliament in London, fog effect - 1903 https://botfrens.com/collections/41/contents/3110628

The Sea Seen from the Cliffs of Fecamp - 1881 https://botfrens.com/collections/41/contents/9704

I'm leaving with the feeling my body was here but my head somewhere else. How many chances?

Not so much hope but wait Not just wait but pray for it Maybe a glance

At least I hope there's nothing more interesting, in the Hades kingdom, than hunt me in wet dreams

Maybe the ghosts in my dreams will have the time to visit such an unhunting one.

Well is not a secret that I rather be dragged for a kilometer than start a conversation with somebody unknown

He says meet more people lay with different boys sleep in their arms for a minute and see how you feel

What is simple to you may be the hardest thing for me. What for you is a cloud for me it's a hailstorm. What for you it's a stone may be a mountain and a drop an ocean and freedom a prize too hard to reach

Uma forma de censura

Na ânsia de agradar todo mundo, nem isso conseguiu e ainda esqueceu de si mesmo. Eu, eu esqueço.

Se só a vitória interessa então pra que lutar?

It's always about being loved seeing admired wanted. I'm so tired of this. Just want to be free.

And turned into an adult who believes in almost every single thing they say about me. Especially the bad ones

Not brave enough to cry Or make the final move Staying here is killing us Staying here is killing us

I conditioned myself I condemned myself And Its castration at its highest levels

I keep on waiting for this fire To come and burn While they are watching But nothing

What did I do wrong for him to think it's wrong to ask for help?

Almost every time I have the time to dream, my dreams leads me to you

Put on a song and pray Take me away Save me from myself Make me forget who I am May this verse make a miracle May this bridge feel like salvation May this chorus raise my self esteem up

Not one good single thing to say about me.

So stupid So so stupid

If only there was silence inside my head

It's time to give up baby It's not about them It's you all the time Asking pleading needing wanting bleeding imploring for love