Blair Cat 🐾

@whimsicalblair.bsky.social

Blair! ◇ Level 30 ◇ Illustration enjoyer ◇ Occasional gamer ◇ FL, USA ◇ Bi, 'not important romantic' 🔞 No minors pls ✌️ Into toon things 🦋 header by @heyitsmyles.bsky.social ◇ mental or personal ramblings ahead

This is my only social media platform and everything contributes in getting those set of words right. For some reason, my subconscious says this had to be where I get the words. And because I think these are technically racing thoughts, being on any other wouldn't articulate the same ones. But--

Sometimes if I get a negative impression of one place or negative mindset while I'm at that place, walking through it again gives gives me the negative feeling but far too quickly to have control over it. At this point my subconscious is an entity of it's own because it responded in under a second.

A theory is I'm more susceptible to this by using my phone for just anything. Touching grass might give me more control over where this is embedded. My instincts just tell me to use it for important stuff rather than fun.

I guess my thoughts aren't just racing, but the border between them and the outside world is broken. It's actually like a thought magnet is trying to take them. Sometimes being around and forced to talk to the wrong people, can totally give me this reaction.

I'm getting something I think should be strictly off limits. Basically my thoughts are racing/swarming out too hard, and I guess it's trying to steal what it is from me. I don't think they end up no where, so it's like attempting to steal from me.

So yes there are many sides to me that I haven't expressed that may conflict with what you'd normally hear, but that also says I should aim for what I want rather than what people want for me. Disagreeing says this is someone you don't like. Being convinced you know better could be blind.

Despite that I'm not against enough, there's no way in hell I should resort to emotional sensitivity or intellectual vulnerability. There are the wrong people to empathize with if you genuinely want to stay on track.