Whitney Dafoe

@whitneydafoe.bsky.social

Severe ME/CFS patient and advocate. Writer, photographer, filmmaker. artist, activist, creative. Bedridden since 2013 sick since 2004. Never. Giving. Up. ✊

People from the "wellness" dimension judging people with an illness they have not even bothered to google. What the bloody hell. You can’t call that "wellness" anymore it’s so misinformed and uneducated, it’s just "nice sounding nonsense”. Or in many cases, "harmful nonsense”.

Where does it go when you lose it? When you feel as if you’re in a dream watching your life unfold somewhere else? Where is that place? When you can sense yourself but you feel that it is not truly in you? Where has it gone? Where do we go when we are lost to the fog? #MECFS

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I just woke up and had an idea for a project I desperately want to work on. And I felt this rush of excitement, not even working on it but just being able to be mentally engaged with it for a moment. It’s absurd how excited we are to simply live our lives and yet branded "malingerers" 😡 #MECFS

A video exploration of the impossible decisions ME/CFS patients have to make, constantly having to decide between two options that will both make our health worse… ♿️ Watch, Listen or Read on my blog 👇 www.whitneydafoe.com/mecfs/?post=...

Impossible Decisions

A video exploration of the impossible decisions ME/CFS patients have to make, constantly having to decide between two options that will both make our health worse. And how much more difficult these d...

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Imagine watching everything you care about in a house that starts to catch fire.  And there’s a firehose one meter from you, but you're tied to a chair and can’t move.  So you have to sit there and watch it all burn.  That is everyday, over and over again, living with #MECFS 💙

Imagining but never doing Dreaming but never experiencing Longing but never feeling Seeing but never touching Believing but never receiving Envisioning but never achieving Driven but never accomplishing ⠀⠀⠀⠀Loving but always being alone. The experience of living with ME/CFS. —————— 💙 Whitney

I am really sick today…It’s so important to remember that the way you feel in this moment is fleeting. It’s like a ball that keeps rolling, and you just have no idea where it’s going to wind up or where it’s going to land…

A clarification of my previous video about how cathartic it feels to be treated by the medical system for a condition *other* than #MECFS - a known condition that the medical system knows how to treat, with decades of research and studies and drug trials and very well predictable outcomes.

Whitney Dafoe@whitneydafoe.bsky.social · 4mo ago

Before leaving the hospital I had some conflicting emotions about going home versus staying there. There’s something deeply cathartic about having a medical issue that’s known. You go to the hospital and they diagnose you and they have a treatment plan and follow that plan… #mecfs #LongCovid

Before leaving the hospital I had some conflicting emotions about going home versus staying there. There’s something deeply cathartic about having a medical issue that’s known. You go to the hospital and they diagnose you and they have a treatment plan and follow that plan… #mecfs #LongCovid

I want to venture out into the garden today on Easter, find an egg, open it up, and find my life waiting for me in there.  On pause.  Swallow it whole and then do anything I want.  Anything.  I just want to picture it and go, my body firing into action.  Follow the white rabbit! #mecfs #pwME

Living just one more day with #MECFS is the saddest, most horrifying thing I could imagine. But I’m going to do it. I’m going to wake up tomorrow and let another day slide past me without living it. And I’m going to get up the next day and do it again. Acceptance, letting go, courage…

I can’t act.  I can think of worlds from simple to profound.  But I can’t act on making any of it.  So I sit and watch it.  And I watch the world pass by without it.  And without me.  This is the torture of #MECFS.  We are HERE and we are ALIVE but we cannot act on LIFE to LIVE.

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I feel like a war torn soldier, at war with the whole world for the most basic human rights.  But I'm a devastatingly fragile, severely chronically sick person.  Why don’t I feel like I’m being taken care of by a kind and loving society that wants me to thrive again? #mecfs #LongCovid

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When you have a better day, and you're scared to do anything with the energy/clarity because you know how fast you can lose it and it just feels so good to *feel* more alive, you're happy just thinking and feeling. You truly know how sacred life is, and how relentless ME/CFS is. #MECFS

The moon outside my window.  During certain times of the year it moves down through the trees and I can see it for a fleeting moment between branches before it disappears down over the bushes.  It’s the only time I’ve seen the moon since 2013;  Through the bars of my window. 1/2

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