ok enough misery posting, i need to start joy posting. joy maxxing

why am i still so miserable this isnt fair

there is no winning

everything is a curse everything is a nightmare, there is no cure there is no light at the end it is an endless blackness and i have seen it

everytime i edpost i get scared normiesky is gonna find me and judge me

im tooo hiiiiiggghh for thiiuiiiiisssss..... IM TOO HIGH FOR THIS

just lied abt throwing up to get out of work. i feel like such a failure

does anyone know a good mood tracking/journaling app? i need to get into it for therapy

i truly have no place in the world

no updates today. still miserable, still fat

i have been craving oreos for fucking days. fuck me i am getting oreos and likely binging on them tonight

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i continue to be ashamed of myself and i continue to not change my behavior. had a bag of cheetos for lunch. 160c omad, lets hope

this isnt even mentioning the autism, i forgot the autism

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sometimes i have to explain to my bf that my mental disorders will make me disordered, and thats ok, but sometimes its like, i have an ed and people in my head bro. what are you expecting from me 😐

sometimes we want things that we just cant have. like an oreo milkshake

im so tired. i dont want to do this anymore. wake up, go to work, hate myself, go to my boyfriends, feel stupid and ashamed. literally all i have going for me is my bf, otherwise life is just meaningless

sometimes i have to explain to my bf that my mental disorders will make me disordered, and thats ok, but sometimes its like, i have an ed and people in my head bro. what are you expecting from me 😐

im so disappointed in myself for these past few days. i just binged and binged and binged. for days. this has set me back so much

i cant wait to be medically recognized. its only the validation that ive been needing for years

i think we split earlier but i have no clue what caused it, so im not sure. but there is... someone here

goodmorning, i haven't been as active, mostly because i have lost sight of my goal 🥀 but hopefully ill get back on track now

rebranding rebranding rebranding

i found an sfw agere server that actually isnt too bad, im so happy 🥲

gonna make the impulsive decision to buy a lot of stuff today. because if i cant binge eat, i will binge buy

i absolutely love these tights, they make me feel like an angel 🤍🪽 cw for fugly fat leg el oh el

gonna get back on track. i lost it for a little bit, but i'm getting it back together. starting with pasta

my therapy appt got pushed back by a week :/

"just wait out your craving" ya thatd be real great but my cravings out last me. i will sit for days thinking "i want cereal" and even if i give in, im still not satisfied. what level of BED is that?

i have disappointed myself so much in the past 3 days. i was so locked in, i was doing so good, and then i go out to eat once and suddenly it's all gone, all of my progress is gone. so i just go off the deep end and say "screw it, might as well eat anything i want" which is of course sweets. sigh

i have some strong opinions

i want to cvt but only because i think its beautiful and i have to be beautiful