Last few Ketamine journey's, with some introspect.. I've come to accept Baby Furs, and now I'm at Ease with poodling. I'm not going to participate in either, but I'm not going to let it bother me that people want to do either.
It's becoming the annual try to hang on to my sanity time. Seeing all the people I really want to see coming to be 15 min away from me, but I can't go see them :(
Guuuuurl! Look at that Butt! It's soooo furry! It's just out there with that tail! I like Furry Butts and I cannot lie.. You other critters can't deny!
The babelfish devices can't come soon enough. I want to get past the language barrier so I can go to JMOF and get surrounded by all the adorable kemono fursuits there.
I'm getting flooded by tons of kemono fursuit pics, and I know mutt hates them, but they really push my buttons. But all of them I see are all fit twinks. No dad bods. Guess I would not look good in one.
You give charity to someone online in the past, and then they decide to shit on you on social media.. guess you never want support ever again.. anonymous donation feeds are now cut.. have fun paying those bills.
Before you take a ketamine journey, you need to be on a positive mood and not feeling tired, pain or had a bad day. If you start the journey with bad thoughts, it's going to amplify those thoughts and feelings
Thing thing I have found about ketamine (kinda toward the end of my sessions limit) is that if I put into my mind 1 or 2 things I want to fix/improve. Then I ponder those items during the journey. When the journey ends I find that those issues do feel improved.
Pondering a new theme song for FPS? Been many years, and the lyrics are dated. Would love to get a song that kinda feels like our first song of Soul Bossa Nova. An Esquival, Denny or other loungy instrumental. Original, catchy, but not ai. I know there are many good furry music makers out there!
You help people out and then they crap on you or take advantage of you. Not all of course, no regrets in many of the people I've helped, but there have been a couple bad apples.
I've thru the years helped many people out when struggling after fires, medical situations, job losses, homelessness, car deaths. Thousands of $$ and I never blinked an eye to it. But these days with the way people act and beg, I'm feeling less and less compelled to care. Sad that it comes to that.
Since programming at cons are put on by attending volunteers, the fact that megaplex has so many baby furs and pup panels just shows that the demographic of that con has shifted toward those interests and the traditional attendees and panelist have moved on to other events. It's now rainfurest east.
I would compare trying to explain a ketamine journey like the author, John who wrote the book of the bible, Revelations. You see things no one else has seen, and you're are trying to put words to it, but the images are just so extreme, if you are not very skilled in verbally explaining things.
Thank god I don't have any illegal kinks/fetishes. I feel sorry for those that struggle with having those desires. Most keep them bottled up and I'm sure it's a struggle. But then some act upon them and that is the disastrous outcome.
My ketamine journeys have molded my brain to be more accepting of baby furs and less afraid to mingle with them. There are certain aspects I like about them, but in general not my thing to regress into one. Perhaps I'd be the "daddy role" or grandpa, since I'm old.
General nonfurry perception is they are used to seeing mascots at restaurants and sports events and theme parks. Fursuits are not perceived as kink even tho some are. Pups are always going to have the Folsom bondage image linked to them. And sadly, abdl has its own perceived baggage.
Yes, inside the fandom fursuits to some are kink, and that does make people uncomfortable as well. No win situation. Not all pups in the fandom are into the stereotype kink of it either. I get that baby fur has a swaddling non sexual side of it as well so not all ABDL are sexual.
Cons are not going to let me openly display my legal kinks in the middle of con space because it will make many people uncomfortable. But letting specific kinks openly out onto the con floor just because they are more popular is not fair to those that are uneasy about them.
I remember it was difficult to find people to run panels. Usually leaving rooms empty parts of the day. If a con has 20 of one class of event, it's prolly the only class that submitted to do any panel content. I have not heard that any other class of panel got specifically denied.
Not that I'm supporting or endorsing megaplex in anyway, the concept of having themed rooms is not new. AC and FWA have done similar. A puppet themed room or a pool toy room respectively. One can argue pool toys to be a fetish the same as pups or baby furs.
Wow.. have not had the urge to create a new fursuit.. but I kinda think a highland cow would be neat.
People think I'm anti-baby fur. I'm not.. I've even participated in some events in the past. It doesn't do anything for me, but I understand why people are into it. My only beef is how over bearing they can be with taking over events, when it makes some people uncomfortable.
I've had a couple nest cams for a few years, but they always kinda sucked for staying online and slow to respond to live video requests. One has totally died now. What options out there are some of you using that seems to be working out for you as I decide on new. Tired of paying google for storage