that familiar numbness has made its return.

:)

i'm bracing myself for the abandonment.

actually, i don't even know why i'm so surprised of this outcome when i manifested this.

when my girl hears my tarot cards being shuffled, so she asks if i could do a reading on her relationship with her ex… despite all of the readings that i've done for her have told her to stay away from that man.

i fucking love cody.

just friends don't do what we do.

i hope that everyone has a nice day, at least.

i'm just grateful for the ones who remain now, since i'm actively losing companions from my spiraling. interesting, really, but i'm used to it.

i wasn't aware that today was "let's push yue to her limit" day when i'm already kind of reaching that point.

forever an unrequited lover.

✦ 20:25 — amor ad me venit.

i finally feel at ease, but i refuse to allow myself to feel / too / comfortable.

casting a protection spell while the marías plays in the background just feels right.

✦ current status — healing.

does anyone else listen to hyperpop or anything that is deemed to be "hardcore" to wake themselves up.

i need this mercury retrograde to end very fucking soon.

people are saying that atlus has turned woke because of the metaphor meme that they posted… when the popular game of the persona franchise literally dives into rebelling against corruption & they have an openly transgender character in catherine: full body. baby, they've been woke.

please, let this year be over already. let this pain be over.

maybe i'm too emotional, but your apathy is like a wound in salt; maybe i'm too emotional, or maybe you never cared at all.

don't be fooled. i'm still fragile.

original character(s) idea that i was thinking about while working: a combat - based couple that's based off of the sun & moon, but the moon character's aesthetic / style changes into a new moon phase (default is full moon) when they're separated from the sun character.

pinning this as a notice. please, don't take my lack of interactions & responses to heart, especially as of recently. i have little to no motivation to tend to everyone's messages. however, i can promise that i see them; i'm just so emotionally exhausted to respond to every single one of them with…

we can't be friends, but i'd like to just pretend.

just know that i will find my way from you like flowers from a tomb while you decide who you are.