qier automata
@zerosynthie.bsky.social
🖤 god's favourite mistake 🩷 Zero/Syn || 🏴 || 🏳️⚧️ || 🔞
i'm such a voice note girly, but there is also the coveted 'Synthie is v high' voice note
y'know i'll fully cop to "did this to myself"ing, but it's frustrating when i keep trying different ways to not do this to myself yet keep doing this to myself
another EMDRful day in the trauma of the [̶̶̧̞̞̱͋̉ͪ͐ͤ-͚̻͕̥̄̈̈̇̕̚-̥̀͛ͯ́͢͡͝-̜͆̕-̛̤̘͕ͬ̈̚-͟-̭͉̹̪͉̞̼̿ͣ̿̂-ͫ-̡̡̝͉̩͎͓͑ͭ̋͢-̗͒͘͠-̤-̞̗͒͒͊ͨ́-̣͊͑]̉͟
it goes it goes it goes it goes it goes it goes it goes it goes YASSSS QUEEN
40k: this game originally started as a sci-fi twist on classic fantasy, so we have all the traditional kinds of elves Me: of course 40k: high elves Me: right 40k: dark elves Me: right 40k: clown elves Me: righ- 40k: wood elves Me: wait go back one 40k: and of course the elf cult that worships ghosts
it's a good thing i have today as a crash day bc i did actual watch Beautiful Boy this morning and now i just need to lie down for like 8 hours
another Beautiful Boy (2018) in the desert of the real
VOLITION - No. Not a disaster. Weave this into the story of you. Walk out of its *ruins*. Save those who still can be saved -- *I'm* on your side.
also gonna caveat that this is not me saying "forgive your rapist", this is me saying that i try and hold grace for the girls that do transference of their manipulative mothers ontae me etc. that make sense aye?
qier automata@zerosynthie.bsky.social · last wk.remembering i had to explain the difference between abuse and dyke drama to my emdr psyche this week aha
idk gang, i just don't hae the time/energy/desire tae beef wi people. i'm vegan
and like, i'm also a very traumatised tranny. i try very hard to not let it sabotage my relationships, but i don't trust anybody that never even considers that they could be the problem
remembering i had to explain the difference between abuse and dyke drama to my emdr psyche this week aha
not to be glasgow's baddest boy about it, but during the break while getting my tattoo i did also get my ears stretched
you arent a burden. you are a human being with wants and needs. having desires does not make you selfish. unless you are sonic, in which case you are not human and everything you do sickens me.
another *record scratch*ful day in the *amen break* of the real
chat, would you still love me if i was mentally well? 👉🏻👈🏻