WISEMAN

@zerowiseman.bsky.social

♋ INTP | AuDHD/Fibromyalgia 🔞 ✏️ DM for commissions! 🖼️ https://zerowiseman.straw.page/commissions 🎮 https://www.twitch.tv/zerowiseman pfp: @vinsu.bsky.social [ #art | #me | #gaming | #photos ]

Sometimes I do have that... imposter syndrome, but days like this remind me that I can't even do things I WANT to do and enjoy when my anxiety is making me shake literally. That's all, sorry. No more complaining until I make progress. But streaming might not be on the table until then.

I wish I had more energy to do things, because it's like.. I technically COULD stream after 5pm when offices are closed but it legit steals all of my social battery away from me and I feel ill. Like sick to my stomach from doing this. I KNOW that sounds pathetic but my anxiety is just like that.

I am having no luck on either sides with trying to get a new psychiatrist. Trying to actually get any medical records to this new clinic is proving to be almost as frustrating as my previous doctor just not being available. I'm having a huge anxiety spike the past few days

I'm not trying to be like "before it was cool" it's just that in the early 2000s being an artist didn't get you anything. I was treated like I was doing something useless by people IRL... but having community online to share art with kept me passionate about it. It felt more than a hobby!

Having art friends from the golden days of online art is like.. We were THERE together in the trenches trying to support each other's passions socially... While IRL we were just the weirdos who drew pictures no one cared about.

I've been having so much fun playing San Andreas again! I literally lose time when I stream it... Only issue is it's gonna be hell to edit down for youtube. My channel isn't monetized so it's not a huge problem, but I don't want the VODs being blocked in multiple countries if possible

I did NOT miss this place but some people are following me here for my Twitch live updates & I don't blame them for not wanting to use other social media. I could probably curate this place better for my own sake. At least I'll have someplace other than Instagram to post art & rambles