Apprehentice ⚧️

@appr.pro

she/her | C# programmer and coffee enthusiast from the west coast, USA ADHD | Transfeminine 🏳️‍⚧️ | Pansexual 🏳️‍🌈 | Androromantic Find my links and socials at https://appr.pro/

I am learning that I cannot comfortably work on any sort of creative project unless I am at home at my desk. I just can't focus and it seems undesirable. My brain simply won't enjoy doing it. My projects are just gonna have to wait until my days off and I have to be okay with that.

Was late for work today because I forgot that I was going in early. And I woke up feeling like my ADHD meds finally started to bring me some clarity 😅 Looks like there's still some progress to be made.

I finally feel like things are coming together. I just need to find and get into a career that I have the aptitude for. I can't sustain myself forever on $20/hr.

My new ADHD meds seem to be doing *something* now. I think I need to temper my new ability to start stuff, though, before I tear my house apart looking for stuff I've misplaced and make a mess that I won't want to clean 😅

Sitting in the restroom crying because I made a non-catastrophic mistake at work which made somebody upset. I can't tell if it's regular anxiety or my new ADHD meds.

Man, today has been a lot. First the run-in with the condescending facilities guy, then my blood sugar crashed because of the anxiety meds that I took because of the aforementioned encounter combined with the caffeine I had earlier. And I still busted my ass to get my work done. I am exhausted.

Some folks need to be reminded that they are professionals and that tone carries a lot more meaning than they think. I can tell when you're being condescending and I can tell when you're upset with me, even if what you say isn't necessarily hostile. Quit being a passive-agro shit about your job.