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oh on a positive note i fully brushed through my matted depression hair!! my scalp hurts but it is sparkling clean and i am going to try so so so so so hard to plait my hair bedfore bed going forward, it prevents so much hassle but i forgettt

dating a Fellow Queer™️ has done some much for coming to terms with my own identity still struggle with internalised....neo-label-phobia? not sure what youd call it, with my myself, but....its getting (a little) better

i offer kity to the tl

my wildest fantasy is being on an antidepressant that works for more than 3 months

my gf is actually the sweetest prettiest most wonderful person on the entire planet and she DOESNT SEE IT!!!! SHE DOESNT SEE HOW WONDERFUL SHE IS!!!! AND IT DRIVES ME S I L L Y !!!!

end of the month meals really are something. wow i love Bowl Of Noodle and Bowl Of Sprouts

love love love drawing my characters in emotional distress. yessss baby show me those furrowed brows and eyebags youre so fun to draw queen

i am slightly worried about the seagull though it was acting weird and didnt fly away even when shooed so heres to hoping when i wake up from my GODDAMN NAP!!! there is a distinct lack of seagull in my communal garden

a moment of unapprecation for the massive fucking seagull stood doing nothing outside my window at 6am and the rook that woke me up by deciding the only reasonable reaction to their existance is to stand next to them, screaming,

man gender is so cringe

anyway. check out this char design wip. shes a manamaid no i will not elaborate

my mum always tells me i have my fridge whacked up too high and i could save money if i turn it down and like. yes. shes not wrong. but also if my cherry coke isnt so cold it hurts my tongue every time i take a sip ITS NOT COLD ENOUGH!!!

relapsing to a level of depression that practically disables you is such a specific feeling of heartbreak after 10+ years of therapy, medication, internal work, etc at some point, it's hard to believe you will ever recover. Is this who I am destined to be for my whole existance?

you know that thing where you snap the end off an ice cream cone and make a mini one by scooping up a bit of leftover icecream typically destined for the stomach of the nearest canine? they should sell cones in that size. i would eat them by the handful

i also think. itd be like, SO sick, if my depression wasnt persistant. ngl it makes me laugh reading PDD classification as "two years or more" uh hey queen whats it called after almost 2 decades

i think maybe they should invent antidepressants that 1. actually work 2. dont ruin your entire reproductive system if you start taking them too young/for too long a time. i just think thatd be cool

sadly crunching on a singular bare wafer ice cream cone

ah another good night of gruesome true crime podcasts and hating myself

profile redesign did, we're so back lads

guess who's back with a fresh new relapse bitches (hope you're all doing okay)

angsty youtube playlist makers can get it

anyways i got a new meowmeow purr she is baby

i binge ate half a cake because i was sad and am disgusting so im not eating anything ever again ever i think thats a rational response

hey guess who's backkkkkk can't avoid the broken brain syndrome for too long

Sooooooooo.....what are you guys being for halloween? 🎃👻 :3

Noah is tired|non-ed DNI @scaredangel.bsky.social · 12mo ago

undercooking a bowl of wild rice so i can feel like a horse in a faraway meadow chewing stalks of grass

Reminder to all my lovely ed moots: You all deserve better than this life, this disorder, this bingeing and purging and restricting and negative self talk, better than the people and situations that put you here and keep you here. You deserve so much fucking better. You are worth so much more.

cw period talk so :) now i know why i suddenly relapsed out of fucking nowhere this is my second period in a reasonable timespan after 6-ish years of none whatsoever so god fucking knows whats going on with my organs honestly i rather i didnt get it back