@carnaltwin.bsky.social

Being compared to my lazy, alcoholic, transphobic stepfather just now has got to be the most insulting thing I've ever experienced. I've been forced to live around him for over a decade, and people act surprised when they see my temper's been frayed? Do you expect me to bite my tongue for ten years?

Been sitting on this set of messages for a few days. Guess I'm feeling expendable more than anything. Bud and I are still friends, but it does ache a little to know they so easily give their affection to other people. We weren't all that special after all

A text exchange between myself, Bud, and War.

Cairo: Bud's on his redemption arc
Bud: No im still evil as fuck
Bud: But i har soft spot
Bud: For my
Bud: Lover
War: yeah you loyal fuck

So, here's a funny story. The day after posting the Lucario tutorial, my laptop stops turning on. I then spent the next two weeks waiting for it to be fixed in Toronto. Instead of terrorizing some other creative medium like I intended, I made a bunch of pencil drawings. mfw forced drawing practice 🤠

A Lucario diving towards the viewer into a pool, with an indifferent Midnight Lycanroc watching from a distance, sitting on a pool-deck chair.A Gengar holding a balloon and soaring above the Earth into space, looking rather startled. A Zangoose is floating nearby, looking much more happy.A wolf wearing a plaid, collared shirt, looking over a desk, studying some papers with an outstretched finger, looking tired and uninterested. He's wearing a beanie with the letters "Mx" stitched onto the brim. His pointed ears poke from rips in the hat. The moon hangs overhead out the window behind his head. A desk lamp illuminates the objects on the desk.Broadway from the show Gargoyles looking over the viewer, arms crossed, wings spread, a rather wide frown stretching across his face.

Gonna take a break from drawing after that ridiculously-long undertaking (seriously, why does it always take me so long to make such simple projects?). Guess I'll find some other creative medium to terrorize in the meantime

I knew Bird Alone was going to end how it did, but here I am, sitting alone in my room on Christmas Eve, tearing up over losing a fictional parrot. Don't squander the time you have with friends. That shit doesn't grow on trees.

Here's the most recent thing I've finished. After watching Zootopia 2, I got a little inspired and drew these two goobers. I mean, with how hard the movie pushes their relationship, it only makes sense to take it to its extreme, right? Attempted some more complex colouring again. Still needs work

Drew this one at the end of November. Got super lazy with the colouring, but this one was only meant to be practice for the pose. I originally wanted to draw another one to go along with this, but I got lazy. Will probably return to the idea at some point next year. Hi, Sonar!

Made this one for @ircluzar.bsky.social. 'Twas my first time drawing a feminine body type. Definitely more happy with how Violet looks than Cairo. He looks like a frigging rat, and I didn't quite get the pose how I wanted. Still better than I expected it to turn out

Violet Bunny watches with amusement as Cairo the Lucario rages at a video game while the two of them sit on a red couch. Cairo is screaming "WHAT WERE THEY THINKING?"

Made these in October to practice doing non-flat colouring. I basically just took an airbrush and scribbled until it looked okay. Not the worst things I've drawn, but I'm not sure I like this way of colouring. Will keep experimenting

Purple-blackish blob of symbiote sits on an outstretched hand, looking rather happy with himself.A clawed, dark-furred hand reached out of a smartphone into the world. Little RGB-coloured pixels flit around it.

Two nights in a row without sleep. My brain is hazy enough right now to drop the ego, so I'm gonna post some drawings I've been sitting on

You jerk awake and claw your way out of a pile of latex and rubber scraps, your heart pounding as you gasp greedily for air. The sun peeks between the slats of a boarded up window in the dusty room you've been squatting in since you came to town.

My insecurities have been creeping up on me again. I've also noticed that I've been evading social interaction a bit more than usual. Almost makes you think the two are related, huh?

Took a few days' break from the animation/animatic to draw this. Weird to think it's been exactly six months since I last spoke with J. I wish I had thought of a better conversation topic. I miss you, man.

Klint turning into a Lucario after discussing the possibility of Lucario becoming real with J. As they race to tell J the good news, they realize they aren't there.

Past-self owes current-self an apology for making me commit to this animation/animatic. Current-self owes future-self an apology for being stubborn and sticking with it. Future-self is deaf and will commit to another project. I am in debt to myself and inept to everyone else

I accept that I'm in a low point in my life. Maybe I lost friends this year, and maybe I've lost interest in the things that used to bring me joy, and maybe I'm not good at the things I want to be good at, but I can take solace in the fact that I've been given the opportunity to have those feelings

A rainbow over the treeline