Cid

@cidneverwas.bsky.social

Inquire within for more than is on the tin... My first social media account outside of Tumblr. Just a randumb, depressed, GAD/SAD & CFS addled Millennial. Blank/suspect profiles will be blocked.

I feel so broken and empty... I'm touch-starved but have to fight to not flinch when touched. I want to be close to someone but I've lost the ability to trust people. Besides the depression and simmering anxiety I've got AD(H)D w/o the hyperactivity or brain-fog making it difficult to type.

Really not feeling like going into work tonight. Despite the temperature being acceptable level for a change, I'm aching, tired and generally sick of the worst aspects of retail with having to heft shit that exacerbates my joint and back issues in quick succession. In other words, same old crap...😮‍💨

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I just feel like I don't want to exist most of the time anymore... I don't feel like I fit in anywhere, I'm losing my mind, my health is bad, I'm stuck in a dead-end job that I'm becoming unable to perform and everything just keeps getting worse. There's nothing to look forward to except more pain.

Can't sleep for assorted pain and various mental unease... Wish it would stay overcast and rainy. Easier on my eyes and temperatures that are below 90° are more than welcome. Unfortunately the temperature is going to go back up too quickly AND it's going to be more humid, so FML. 😑

Feeling really weary... Half watching a YT narration about the Epic of Gilgamesh and doom-scrolling trying to find a distraction from the anxiety and depression. Wish I could find friends or more hopefully a partner with whom I could share my existence. Things feel empty and lonely too often...